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I can be a good student again.

2006-08-20T05:56:00.000+08:00

Finally. Bash is over. Good job to all fellow planners and workers of the event, and hope all those who went enjoyed it.

Now, it's time for us to go back to our books, and lead a more peaceful life.

I hope my grandmother gets well soon :)

2006-06-10T01:54:00.000+08:00

It's strange. Everytime I have insignificant things to talk about, I'll have lots to type in my blog. But everytime when I'm really affected emotionally, I don't have the feeling to write in my blog. Many thoughts are just zipping through my head, and I'm too tired to even think aobut them, let alone write them down. Sometimes, I wonder if I'm thinking too much, reading too much into too little things. But yet, when I try to tell myself that, I just can't help thinking that what if the small thing turns out to be important, or a decision-maker? And if I don't think about them now, how am I going to justify myself at the last minute when I need to explain my reasons for doing things or acting in a certain way?

But anyway, one thing is certain. I'm going to treasure the people around me more, particularly my dear old grandmother. If I don't make her happy now, when do I do it? Being naggy really doesn't constitute a reason to treat her shabbily. I've got to remind myself that consistently from now on, and realise that she doesn't mean to irk me. Just that she forgot what she's said or has asked, and so will just keep on repeating. And when she spouts weird stuff like don't go out with boys etc, I must remind myself that she means no harm. Just that she's been detached from the society for too long. I just have to tell her that I've now grown up and can discern good from bad, and ask her not to worry. If she continues, just nod and smile and pacify her loh.
This paragraph actually serves as a reminder to me. I just want her to be happy every day.

Do you actually know what you're saying?

2006-05-22T04:04:00.000+08:00

Junyang said, on the short intro for his album aired exclusively by YES93.3 FM, that his "国语" album was out, and hoped that everyone would give him support.

Wait a minute. I thought that he's been born and bred in Singapore, a true-blue Singaporean in all sense, and has been educated in Singapore for all his life? So, why in the world is a Singaporean using "国语" on a Singaporean radio station to describe his new Chinese album? If it's going to be aired in Taiwan, I can understand.... but in Singapore? Hey! I don't understand why some Singaporean artises have to be so phony when talking to the media. Don't follow how the Taiwanese artises talk blindly leh. Whatever they say or how they pronounce certain words may not be entirely correct, and definitely not the norm here. Doesn't mean that everything that they say or do is right k? Can use your brains and be more discerning? Some of the terms they use definitely don't apply here lor, like using "国语" instead of "华语" and saying han4 instead of he2 for "和". Litter is called la1 ji1 and not le4 se4. Ok?

And for your info, Mr Hong, the so-called "国语" or National Language in Singapore is Malay, and not Chinese. So did you actually mean that you've recorded a Malay album instead? Well of course, that can't be it. So, will greatly appreciate that all local artises please stop acting like phonies, and be more natural, and talk like who you are, what you are. Have a sense of self-identity, and people will respect you for who you are. If not, I think we can all be prepared to fade into the massive walls of Taiwanese entertainers.

2006-04-19T19:12:00.000+08:00

Do you know what's called pure bliss? It's when you can sit down and enjoy a person's singing you, despite the obiang costumes and dance moves. You simply enjoy the performance purely due to the powerful vocals of the performer on stage. It's simply exhilarating....

Watched a rerun of the 1993 mini-concert that Jacky Cheung and Vivian Chow gave in the TVB Studio. The comperes and them were wearing all these obiang costumes, blinding flashy shirts and flashy ties, and those above the ankle trousers and long flowy 'pong pong' sleeves for the ladies. Damn hilarious. But once Jacky Cheung opened his mouth and sang, whoa.... everything else was forgotten and I simply revelled in his vocals. The correct and diverse pitches, the emotions and angst expressed through his singing......oh my.......

Vivian Chow, on the other hand, paled in comparison. Half the time, she nearly went off key and her vocals were weak and unsteady. It was worse when she was doing duets with Jacky Cheung, her voice was usually overpowered, and you could only hear her in spurts of high pitches during some parts. Didn't sound good at all. But well, 反正人家都已经不混娱乐圈了，我们就别那么责恶地一直讲她吧。Heehee...

It was a great performance overall, largely due to Jacky Cheung. I was so captured that I just had to stop everything else that I was doing um, well, studying, to listen to him. SIMPLY GOOD.

Alright, that's about it. I really should go back to my MR notes.

Bus 179

2006-04-09T20:03:00.000+08:00

I think that SBS Transit Bus 179 drivers are all trained by watching videos of Initial D or 烈火战车, and they see themselves as Fujiwara Takumi, or Wah Dee.

The way they swerve and turn, you'll think they are professional racers instead of our dear bus captains. Haha! I think all of us should take a ride on 179 sometimes. A ride that you'll never regret. Haha!

To be my husband,

2006-03-26T03:08:00.000+08:00

You'll have to catch flying cockroaches for me, and bear with the fact that when it comes to flying cockroaches, I'm more afraid of them than you are, and also bear with the fact I'm not going to go looking for them to try and catch them for fear that they'll fly in my face again.

To my boy:
Do you really wish to take Miss Hwee Lai Lin as your legal partner, and stay with her in times of sickness, poverty, and cockroaches?

胡言乱语

2006-03-25T22:53:00.000+08:00

What the hell. I've been feeling stifled and stressed for the whole week and I can't seem to get anything done. And the heat's getting on to me. And I think I'm falling sick again as mucus starts getting the better of me. I really should be working on my assignment liao..... darn.

2006-03-05T01:17:00.000+08:00

Hi All,

I've deleted the last post cos I felt it sounded too harsh.... I wrote that in a fit of anger yesterday and well, I guess I've calmed down and realised that things are not as what I imagined. But I do still think that there's abit of communication problem that I have to think about and solve. We'll have to get that settled. But for the time being, all's well, and to Andrew and Kenny, thanks for your concern! Really appreciate it. Thanks to all my friends who're always there looking out for me. You're the best! ^_^

2006-03-01T17:40:00.000+08:00

A very motivating song... esp when your other half is by your side :)

路
主唱: 王杰

这是一条无尽长路它没有终点
天地之间我在寻找你我的明天
熟悉的喜悦悲伤都已太遥远
当太阳升起未来就在我眼前

多少次我想回头
多少次我想要哭
我对自己说 oh我决不认输

人生这条路总会有挫折
汗水和泪水全部抛在脑后
希望和荣耀把它藏心头
只希望人生长路你会永远陪我走

人生这条路永远别回头
哭过也笑过让它随风飘走
爱过也梦过我一生何求
只希望人生长路你会永远陪我走

嫁给我

2006-02-25T04:09:00.000+08:00

小星星亮晶晶闪在你的眼睛里
从此投入我的心呼风又唤雨
我愿意好愿意双手奉上我自己
单身夜里找到你再也不离去
爱是我爱是你爱是肯定句oh~
谁也不能阻挡我永远守护你
日出日落黑夜白昼
时时刻刻拥在怀中
清清楚楚这感动分秒可以成永久
我望著你你看著我
有句话我想对你说
今生今世跟著我做你幸福的理由
嫁给我

Kinds of guys I like:
Alex To - Handsome, Charming, Mature, Witty, Cheeky, Seem to care alot for girlfriend, and Romantic.

He's also the second guy that I know who looks GREAT in a full white suit, after Andy Lau.

Never mind the negative news bout him lah...... I just like the ideal Alex To. And the ideal Alex To, is my ideal kind of man. :)
Childhood idol...... now rising up the ranks to 梦中情人 again *Blush*
And this song, simply makes me melt.

Only I, Know Myself Best...

2006-02-21T23:04:00.000+08:00

...But you guys can always help me understand myself better.

Here's something new: http://kevan.org/nohari?name=LArLiN. This is different from the Johari Window, where your strengths are evaluated and manifested through your friends. This is a checklist for personality flaws. It's probably more telling than the Johari Window :) So go ahead, n show me all my flaws. Probably do me good too :) Thanks~

Johari Window

2006-02-21T00:45:00.000+08:00

Hey People!

Go help me do this k? Can let me find out how you guys perceive me and help me understand myself more too! Hehe....... thanks!

2006-02-02T02:02:00.000+08:00

Wth is happening to MSN? I can't log in!!!! I'm getting pretty pissed now. And the network isn't exactly fast tonight. I think somebody's tapping on my wireless. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

I need a shower to cool myself down.

Memories

2006-01-24T00:22:00.000+08:00

I cleaned up my desk today in a weak attempt to pack and tidy up my stuff for the coming Chinese New Year. I've never been good at tidying up and organising my stuff so I really hate to have to try and tidy the desk up. But that desk has to make way for some furniture liao, plus CNY is coming, so bo pian, have to clean up abit.

Seeing some of the long-buried stuff brought back some memories. Good ones, not so good ones. But alot of them had to be dumped cos I've no space to keep so many things. So I decided to take pictures of them before I throw them away.

Most of them were neoprints that I stuck on this board. But due to lack of tender loving care, dust grew on them.... and the dust were impossible to remove due to prolonged habitation (bleah) and the glue on the stickers, so I had no choice but to dump the whole board. But well, at least I took pictures of them before I threw it away:

Neoprints of yesteryears:

This was taken with my primary school classmates in anytime from Sec2 to 4... I can't really remember... Top row, from left: Liu, Weili, Jean; Bottom row, from left: Me, Hui Ling, Diana.

This was taken with Qiujing in Sec4, after I just cut my hair. Think we were shopping for our prom wear or something... I looked so nerdy!!!

Took this during an outing with the Sec 2B girls after Teacher's Day Concert back in J1. Haven't seen them for eons liao. I wonder how all of them are doing... Don't know still got chance to come out together again too... Miss them... Top row, from left: Sherlyn, Lufei, Cheryl, Sherrine; Bottom row, from left: Me, Emily.

Taken in Sec4 with the TKNP 2000 girls and Peizhen. Yes I know there's a thick, visible coat of the dust on the picture... but just pretend they aren't there *_* This was probably taken at Parkway I think, since that's the place where we normally hung out after school back then. I spent almost my entire Sec4 year there after school there, going there to eat and talk everyday after school. The most usual haunt was Long John's. Now the Long John Silver's is no longer around loh... makes me feel damn old loh... Those were the days when all of us were so carefree... we'll just sit around at this spot we called 'Octopus' on the 4th floor and talk and talk and talk until it's time to go home... How I miss those days... Top row, L-R: Connie, Kimi, Kaiyun (Ah Kai a.k.a. Sabot); Bottom row, L-R: Peizhen (PZ), me, Qiujing (CJ).

This pic was taken after campcraft training I think... the guys are not in here though. Forgot why liao. The frame and the pic is alittle misaligned. There were too many of us to fit into the pic itself and erm, I've not mastered the art of placing the pic exactly into the frame back then so that explains why Ah Kai, me and CJ's head seem to have been chopped and sewn back. =P I was part of the team who participated in the bi-annual Inter-Unit Campcraft Competition in 2000. Those were the best days of my life. The days when we toiled, cried, hoped and leaped in joy together really bonded us a great deal. I remember training our speed pegging the big iron pegs into the ground until I had blisters, the endless tying of bow-lines on the fence before they decided I was better off doing lashings for the flagpole instead of doing up the tent, the tears that we shed on the training ground when we couldn't achieve our targeted speed, the hard work and devotion that we put into the whole competition. We shared alot of ups and downs together during this time, and because of that, most of us in the team, guys and girls alike, are still a close-knit group of friends. I really am grateful for them and hope that we're gonna drift apart.

Well, I've actually lots more pics to put up..... but blogger's photo uploading thingy has gone haywire and I can't seem to upload anymore pics. So guess I shall stop here. Time to sleep anyway. So shall continue with this again. Cya guys!

HELP.

2006-01-20T02:14:00.000+08:00

I'm suffering from RingO'Phobia again!!! Help!!!! I keep hearing my handphone ring, and now I always answer it with a sense of dread. Nothing good happens when it rings recently. Half the time, it's those late locker subscribers who're calling me. Means more work!!! ARgh!!!! But I'm trying hard!!! And will continue to!!!! But in the meantime, I still can't get rid of RingO'Phobia. HELP!!!!!!!

2006-01-18T02:02:00.000+08:00

I'm currently feeling pretty fucked up. I'm on a self-denial mode. Haha.... escapist is me. It ain't good, truly. But when critcisms come fast and hard, I set a wall of defence up around me very quickly. I do know it's wrong. But I just can't face it. And that, I think, is my Archilles' Heel. Perhaps that's why I never do improve haha....

"Since you know it, why don't you go do something bout it, you twit?!" That's where the problem is. I just can't face it. I can't face my own pitfalls. Damn. Haha... So now all of you know what a terrible person I am.

Suddenly feel an urge to go clubbing. Dance all my troubles away and get myself drunk in the atmosphere. Not by alcohol.....alcohol sets you off in a weird way that you might not like when you're sober ^_^

Anyway, was reading LZ's blog. Came across this picture..... actually I did come across this picture the last time, but I forgot to save it. So here goes..... but brace yourselves. It's really..... shocking. Hideous.

TA DA!

Can you even tell which one is me?!?!

That's the picture of the farewell party for our seniors...... or was it for us? I can't really remember. Oh wait. I just checked it out again in LZ's blog. That's the farewell party for us, the outgoing NCOs. It was taken in 2000, when I was still a 16-yr-old sweet young thing. Haha... not that I was that sweet, but oh well.

Time flies. We've all changed. Blossomed into young pretty girls with a better dress sense.. haha, and of course more mature too, perhaps with the exception of yours truly. Of significance is the change in Qiyun. She's really become very, very different. Back in secondary school, she was always this quiet and seemingly meek girl. Didn't contact her for very long when we went to different JCs. But recently we've started catching up again so we're gathering more often now too. Heh... And boy, how much she has transformed! She's no longer the bespectacled and meek girl that she was. She looks very spunky now, with her short spiky hair. And she's also blossomed into a self-confident girl, and a 女强人. She knows what she wants, and she works towards her goals. She is game for anything new, and has thus widened her horizons and life experiences by quite alot. She's able to take on 3 jobs, and able to manage her studies at the same time, and not to mention that she scuba dives! She recently just added another achievement in her portfolio, and that is having acted in SIM's inaugural theatre production. It was a public performance, and a complete success. I mean, she's just very WOW WOW WEE lah. And the best part? She still retained her friendly and helpful nature. So all that I've said before simply adds on to her qualities. All in all, she's turned into a very charming lady. Hehz.... I should learn more from her man. =)

And the guys well, all of them have grown bigger too. The fact is especially telling with Toh and LZ. Toh's biceps have grown significantly bigger. He's no longer the skinny Toh back in sec sch or JC le. Well, brawn does come with brains alright. Smart guy he is, able to make it into NUS. And he's grown much more mature too... after some life experiences of his own. He's a good example of a guy who's able to learn from his life experience, and take everything in his stride, and be sensible. He's a really great guy. Just hope the girl he likes will learn how to appreciate him. All the best to you my friend! As for LZ, he has grown bigger since his poly days. Haha... but the diff now is, he's grown fitter too. Hey LZ, you'd better work on it and don go back to your poly figure after NS hor... haha... and he's very very smart too........ got fantastic results in poly and managed to get a place in NUS's computing. And he's not your nerdy smart guy. He's a guy who knows how to use his brains to think and use his hands to do practical work of guy. Don't pray pray ah~

Well, these are just a few of the people in whom I've noticed the most changes lah. All of us have changed in one way or another, but the most important thing is, despite all the changes, we're still a close-knit group of friends, and hopefully we'll remain this way forever! TKNP Y2K RULEZ!!!! =)

Right... think I'd better catch some sleep now. Going to paste the notices on the lockers tomorrow. Cya!

First Post of the Year

2006-01-13T00:51:00.000+08:00

Hi Everyone!

Today is already nearing the end of the 2nd week of January 2006. I'm probably one of the latest to post my New Year blog...... haha

Anyway, the year started off fine. Went to Esplanade with Lao Gong to watch the fireworks. He was very nice to accompany me there cos I know he doesn't really like the shoving and pushing and squeezing and the cab fare that'd be incurred on the way back. Plus I changed my mind so many times during the process, I think I sort of made him pek chek.... but he was still nice and accompanied me there to see the fireworks hee...... I LOVE MY BABY! Anyway, as many people would have probably known, the fireworks were fantastic! Wonder why the New Year fireworks are always longer and more beautiful than the one on National Day. Spectacular man... lots of vibrant colours and the continuous outbursts of the sparkles was just...... MAGNIFICENT!

And of course, school started not long after. Started off with HMT Lecture... History of Management Thought. Actually, contrary to my peers, I find the History part of it rather interesting. The part on management in ancient times, as in the building of the pyramids, and the stone age and Sun Tzu's Art of War thingy, as well as the beginning of the Industrial Revolution and the problems that came with it. But subsequently, the thing just seems to get drier and drier as they dwell deeper into the management thought aspect. I'm still not very attuned to the business world, despite having already spent 1 year doing a biz course. Somehow this doesn't bode too well does it. How am I going to survive in the biz world if I can't even handle basic management theory??? Well well, I'll just try my best and see what happens. Perhaps I'll just see the light as I continue reading..... hopefully.

On a lighter note, I think the RMIT lecture for HMT looks like Humpty Dumpty. You know… small head, VERY round torso, and 2 legs sticking out of the round body. Haha… But well, that’s like beyond the point lah. Not that this entry had a point in the first place but oh well~ haha.

Had my first MR lect today. Well, okok loh..... could more or less grasp what he's talking bout.
But the notes ain't detailed enough lah.... Getting the book seems like a must liao if I don't want to end up with nothing to write in the essay. Money money money... arghz..... Then just now went to crash the evening BF lect with the rest of the mktg gang to determine if it'd be a good minor. And I didn't understand a single word of what the lecturer was talking about! Not a good sign. I even fell asleep halfway through some of the slides :S Went for supper with the rest after the lect. Had a good time talking and laughing and yanjiu-ing palm reading haha... I'm glad I came to SIM and got to know my current friends. Guess it's a blessing in disguise when I couldn't get into the local unis ba. We all have a common desire to achieve after failing once and we encourage one another on. And they're also the nice kind who doesn't backstab other people. Of course we do gossip occasionally haha... afterall we're not saints haha. But we definitely don't poke 1000 swords into other ppl's backs when they aren't looking. We're decent lah... haha yup..... so glad to have met them. Oh, and many thanks to Ben who bothered to drive all of us home or to the nearest MRT Station! He was even nice enough to drive me, Steph and Viv out to Beauty World for dinner earlier when I asked! *Touched* THANKS BEN!

Well, I'll be getting the HRM notes from Jeremiah later on in the morning. Let's just see if HRM or BF will be more suitable for me. Yanwei said that I seem to be more suited for HRM rather than Finance. Somehow the image just isn't there haha... And well I do think he's right. I've always been more proficient in things that need lots of reading and research, rather than numbers and counting them. :P Anyway, get the notes liao then see how lah... haha...

Then, had been rather busy with council too. Had meetings quite regularly this past 2 weeks. Then had to do the locker stuff, and handle the locker registration. And after the registration, I've got to apply for a date to cut the locks, and not forgetting before that I have to check for the illegal lockers first. I'm very scared that I'll end up cutting wrong lock. Very very scared. And need to assign the locker numbers too. What if I screw up the process? I'm very apprehensive about the whole thing. I won't be able to sleep well until all these has been settled. My threshold of stress is pretty low, but I'm trying to cope with that. At least I'm not going crazy over all these stuff. Perhaps it might be a small matter for some out there, but for me, it's really something that I have to spend alot of time and effort to work on and I really wish I can at least achieve something in school and council, no matter how little, as long as it's a job that I've been given, so that I won't feel like I've wasted my 3 years in SIM, or more aptly put, the remaining years of my school life. I've wasted almost my entire school life since young, and I don't want to live with this regret. I want to look back and be able to think that at least I wasn't without achievement at some point in my life as a student.

Then just end of last week I started tutoring A again. A is this little boy that I've been tutoring since the end of last year. He's a pretty good kid, though a little lazy at times and grumbles haha but which kid doesn't when it comes to school work? Even though he complains that I make him do too much sometimes, I still think he's alot better than many spoilt brats out there nowadays. Hopefully he'll continue to be a good boy as continues to grow up. Just today, he called me saying that his auntie said that she'll like me to tutor her son together with A. Hmm for that, I'm thinking of charging $300 for the both of them. I've just raised the fees from $180 to $200 this year cos A's father requested me to spend more time teaching him as he'll be doing his PSLE this year. Just 2 weeks later I'm raising to $300. But not too much right? If I'm like teaching both kids together. I was thinking of $280 initially. But Steph, Viv and Ben said that I should start bargaining at $300. If really cannot then lower to $280. Like that then can ensure that I can at least get the $280 mah... and if I'm lucky, they might give me $300! Haha... They said that I should say stuff like I'll have to spend more effort to prepare for 2 different levels and figure out how to tutor the 2 different kids and mark additional stuff haha...... Guess I'll have to learn the art of bargaining. The world is about bargaining anyway. If you're good at it, you gain and if you suck at it, you're just not going to get as much good things in life than you can potentially get. So... yup. Let's see how ba. Hopefully I'm able to get the $300. Wish me good luck!

I'm gonna have steamboat at Kel's hall together with the A07 gang later on in the evening! So excited! It's been a few months since we've last met up. Wonder how's everyone now. Will definitely have a nice time catching up heh. Then after that will be staying over at Lao Gong's hall then go to school the next morning. Yeah... it's a drag having to go to school on Sat... boo. Then Saturday will have another steamboat at Sally's house with TKNP gang. I'm so looking forward to the weekend lah! Haha

Hmm ok.......... think that's all for now. Will update more after I come home from the 2 steamboats this weekend!

2005-12-23T14:59:00.000+08:00

Hey You All :)

Haven't been updating for a long time... well, nothing much has happened in my life so far... I'm still pretty much living the same old mundane life lol. But seeing Uncle Kenny's comment in the last entry, I feel obliged to post another entry so as not to disappoint the lao ren jia hehe...

Right now I'm in the office with nothing much to do. Today's my last day at work at Hemisphere Consulting. Boss is not around, and Sally's went to do some Christmas shopping. Speak of the devil. She just came back. Haha... but basically there's nothing much to be done today lah. It's supposed to be half day today one. But she's waiting to make a phone call so must stay... so I just stay with her lor... can earn extra bucks staying longer too mah haha :P

So I spent the day doing nth much... answered 2 phone calls, settled one email, and after that just shredding paper and MSN the whole day. haha... lots of paper to be shredded. And the shredder is super light duty one. Lol... cannot shred more than 3 pc of paper at one go and overheats like every 2 or 3 minutes. Then must let it rest for like err 10 min before u start shredding again.

Yay!!! Juz finished shredding the paper. Been doing tt since morning. And now it's like 3.21p.m. already. So basically I've finished everything... Just wash the cups can go home liao haha... so happy. Sally went out to get a cake... think she come back den we go off together. Haha...

Hmm while I was away from blogging... what did I do? Let's see...

Oh, one of the most significant stuff is I went to register for singing lessons. Haha... but no... I'm not going to join any superstar thingy for sure... don sia suay myself mah haha. Then busy with council stuff ba... there was the dept meeting, the agm, and orientation meetings. But ok lah... I'm not as busy as the planning committee. Think they're having a very trying time now. To Steph, Viv, Robin, Kenny and whoever that might be reading this blog, JIAYOU K??? Heehee... We'll work hard next sem, get good grades and also rough out everything that needs to be done in council! :D

Hmm ok that's about it ba.... Nothing much, just some ramblings lol... maybe will post more over Christmas! Haha

Alright, that's all for now. Have a Merry Christmas!

Something Interesting...

2005-11-26T12:30:00.000+08:00

Being at home sick and with nothing to do, I played around with the free online translator that I found on google:

From Chinese to English:
我是大美女! = I am the big beautiful woman!

From English to Chinese:
I am the big beautiful woman! = 我是大美丽的妇女!

LOL. Do not trust these translators 100%.

Why Are There Such Freaking People Living In My Estate?!?!?!

2005-11-15T22:04:00.000+08:00

As I went down the stairs to buy dinner this afternoon, a strange whiff of smell hit me. I looked down the flight of stairs and right there, at the corner nearest to the steps, lay a big pile of cat shit. FUCK. I climbed back up, and took the elevator down, even though I live on the freakin 2nd storey.

It's not the first time this has happened. Weird that it didn't happen when SM Goh was here last Sunday. So very weird. Wonder what the cleaners are doing. I don't expect them to keep the corridors or the area sparkling clean ok? I don't even expect them to go round sweeping the corridors everyday, even though that's what they're supposed to do. BUT CAT SHIT!!! That's like plain disgusting can! Can't they just clean it up when it's there?! damn stink can! And all of us living on the 2nd floor got to endure the smell as long as the shit is there.

And where do the cats come from? This brings us back to the most fundamental questoin in my title. Look, I don't have anything against cat lovers. But if you want to have a cat as your pet, kindly buy one, or pick a stray, whatever you want, and keep them at home, feed them at home, toilet train them at home. Then when you have the time, bring them out for walks. This is how pet-keeping should be! If you decide that you do not have the time, or do not want to take the effort to do all the above, or that your house is not big enough, or whatever reason you may have, then, please do not do stupid things like feeding them outside your house. You feed them, the cats get used to it, and they'll come up to your house whenever they feel like having food. Sure, it poses no problem to you. But the cats don't just stay put there! They eat already, they're full, they start sleeping on the damn parapets. Or they decide to take their daily walks along the corridors. And freak the daylights out of kittyphobics like me! Can you imagine coming home at night, walking innocently towards your home when out of the blue you see this glint coming from, get this, a black cat's green eyes. Wah Lau!!! Can't a person walk home without being scared like this.

And no, that's not the main point, although it is indeed a very important one. We, the HDB dwellers, dry our clothes on metal brackets put on the parapet of the corridor! And our clothes are all facing inwards!!! You think we dont want to let it face outside and get it far far away from your cats meh?! As if they can even be considered yours in the first place since u don't rear it at home. But we have to face them inwards cos of safety reasons! (Unlike you, we're much more civic minded people.) But when your cats start prancing along the corridors, they go right under our clothes, and happily brush through all of them! Since they are technically strays, I don't suppose they take baths right? Then? Our clothes all kena bua by your cats lah!!! All my clean and fresh laundry are now laced with germs and bacteria!!! TA MA DE! If you think that's alright, next time I take a dog and let it walk under your fresh laundry right there at the lift landing. See if you still think it's alright anot!

And the worst thing is all the shit and urine! They stink up the entire floor, and is damn unhygenic lah! Wah lau... and those idiots can still put up with it, and continue to do their 'good deeds' without caring that its a perpetual irritation to all of us other residents!!! WHY DO I LIVE WITH SUCH FREAKS!!!

15 years ago, when I was still a little kid of about 5 or 6, the block used to be clean. Not very, but still, clean enough, fit for human habitation. The sweeper auntie will sweep the block conscientiously without fail every morning and the block will always be clean when she knocks off. My neighbours back then were normal people who did normal stuff. Sure, we live in an old estate and there was the occasional mouse or cat that will charge upstairs and invade some of our houses. But it was still pretty alright on the whole.

But now? I have to endure with shit and urine everyday, hopping over them every morning on the steps just so that I won't step on them. And what bout the cats that bua my clothes everyday!!! Wah lau... I can't take it anymore...

WHY DO I LIVE WITH JERKS AND IDIOTS????!!!!!

2005-11-04T21:05:00.000+08:00

我是属于一个心情大起大落的人。早上觉得非常感伤，但现在就觉得好一点了，尤其是在看到他后。那时才意识到其实之前也只不过就是一场小争执罢了，何必这么看不开呢？但有时候真的还是会再产生这种想法。或许我应该再豁达些，这样别人会快乐一点，而我自己更会加倍地快乐！何乐而不为呢？=）

还有，这与以上所写的毫无关系，但是，谭耀文真的好帅！！！他在〈俗事情真〉里跟郭可盈表白的那一幕实在是 lum (广东：指非常陶醉）死我了！！！So Sweet!!! 令我嘴角不禁挂起了笑容。希望可以有机会看到更多谭耀文主演的剧集。Heeheehee~~~

好了，不能再哈啦下去了。。。 Monday 还有paper。。。Bye了！

2005-11-04T07:32:00.000+08:00

In life, we shouldn't look back, cos it's always best to go forward rather than retreat. At the same time though, we shouldn't be afraid to look back to see what we have done, so that we learn from our mistakes. That requires a great deal of courage, and well, I've yet to master it. Many things are learnt in retrospect, and I've yet to learn much, cos I've always been, and still, afraid to face up to my mistakes. WIMP.

What should I do from now? Submissive is clearly not the key. I know that it's not what you want too. But when you are simply too strong, I wonder how resilient I can get. I've lost myself. And losing more so each and everyday. Time to start learning how to deal with people all over again. What I feel, just do it lah! Easier said than done. But to sound a little pushy sometimes is better than never knowing properly what I really want I guess? 人的一生最重要的就是不枉此生。If one day, I just die without never having really been an individual before, my life will have been a waste. Nothing to value at all. Do I want that kind of life? Clearly no.

东风破。。。很好听的一首歌。听着它会钩起许多美丽的回忆。但是这些美丽的回忆随着时间的流逝，似乎多了很多不顺眼的暇疵。有时侯真的觉得我们好像就是在等着，等着看它几时会开始龟裂，虽然我们彼此都在尽量地避免。但是我真的好怕。。。到底有一天会是你先累了，或是我先受不了，还是我们将排除万难，携手共度接下来的每一天？真的是好遥远的未知数。。。

2005-10-19T05:55:00.000+08:00

I'm awake right now listening to N'Sync's It's Got to Be Me. But my brain is totally zonked out. Tell me anything, and it's highly likely that I've not comprehended it at all.

All the comm law for these few days are making me puke. Why does it look so neverending?

Nothing can go inside my brain now. Absolutely nothing. Feeling so sleepy......

2005-10-12T20:55:00.000+08:00

As I grow older, I find it harder and harder to comprehend texts. I'm afraid that one day I might just become illiterate :S

TCS8 shows sucks. And I don't understand why my mom and sis loves to watch the spastic show Tong Xin Yuan every day.

I find it amazing...

2005-10-07T01:04:00.000+08:00

that one woman alone, can lead to the downfall of a whole dynasty.
How was she really like? Is she really as selfish and cruel as how general history perceive her to be? Or was there a reason behind everything she did? Was there another side of her that we don't know? Hmm, can someone well-versed in Qing Dynasty history enlighten me on this?

Sometimes I think I might have come from the Qing Dynasty in my past life. I've always been fascinated about stuff to do with the Qing Dynasty, especially stuff to do with the palace. Interesting...

昨天, 今天, 明天 + 大前天

2005-09-19T17:00:00.000+08:00

大前天, I was walking towards a coffeeshop. A bunch of guys started staring at me. All the way till I ate my food and finished eating. I dislike such unwanted attention.

昨天, I was walking home from the MRT station after studying and dinner with Toh. A stupid old uncouth bloody lewd AH PEK cycle past me slowly, stuck his face right infront of mine and whistled softly at me. KNN! I DISLIKE SUCH UNWANTED ATTENTION! And I wasn't even wearing anything provocative can? I was in the old SR house t-shirt and berms that were past my knees!!! NIN NABEI!!! NEVER SEE GIRLS BEFORE AH!!!!!

I REALLY HATE SUCH UNWANTED ATTENTION. Can't some nice, normal, young enough but not too young guy come along and try to get to know me, instead of having such lewd n weird people coming up to me?!?! But anyway, I'm taken. By an ultra nice, normal, young enough but not too young guy :D

今天, I woke up freaking early, at 4.30 in the morning, cos I slept before 10 last night. Hmm, did some laundry, then watched AIUEO on Ch56, then the Emmy's on Ch5. The Emmys is so freaking grand, and such an honourable event, unlike the Star Awards in Singapore, where everything feels like it's rigged. After that watched reruns of the Golden Girls, then went to have a nap, and woke up, watched abit of TV with Mom, then came online and now here I am blogging.

明天, I've got MAB Lecture... sighz... I hate MAB... but still gonna aim high... erm so that if drop also won't drop too low ba..... hope that I can do it... Jiayou Jiayou...

2005-09-15T12:17:00.000+08:00

There's been a great hooha recently over bloggers and blogging.

First there were the two bloggers who got charged under the Seditions Act for posting racist comments on their blogs, as well as on forums. This one really dai ji dua tiao lah... I didn't even know what 'sedition' meant before this thing happened, and now, everybody has come to know that there's actually this act in the statutes, and even people in the other hemisphere also know of this case here in our sunny little island.

I think the government has achieved the effect of making all of us sit up and take notice of what we're writing on our blogs. No doubt a blog is actually our personal space, however, it's also a fact that it's posted on the internet, and there'll be people, maybe even ALOT of people, who'll come across our blogs and read them. So I think bloggers do have a responsibility to mind what they write.

But then again hor, seditious or not is a very subjective thing leh... sometimes you might be just ranting away bout something, but people get affected by what you wrote in the wrong way, and think you're racist or anti-govt or something... So this kind of thing very hard to say one leh... Scarly you just write something without any intention of creating trouble, but yet got people see liao think you got problem then jialat liao... Saying that I'm not afraid is surely a lie lah. So now, I, too, feel a sense of restriciton when I write. Scared that I'll write something wrong, then will have letter summon me to go drink coffee haha. Haiyo... but like that blog until very 不自在 leh... but still... haiz... better to play safe..... if not ka dan dio liak mah mm zai see an zua....

Then there were the complaints published in ST's forum regarding Rockson’s blog and it's incessant vulgarities. This one... well, I've got nothing much to say lah... just that I think since it's his own blog, what's wrong with him expressing himself in his own way? If you think that it's an eyesore to you then don't read lor. Yah, the way he writes might be a little crude, but then again, who are other people to judge and comment? Not that I'm supporting Rockson in particular, but I'm just looking at things from a general perspective. A blog is a platform to air our thoughts and opinions, in a way that we're most comfortable with. It also enables you to know more about a person. So, if you have to blog all the while minding your grammar, spelling, or even vulgarities or what-not, then might as well don't blog, cos you're already having reservations and will not be able to say exactly what you think. Lidat blogging will have no more meaning liao mah... right? As long as you're not shooting anyone in particular, or, er, promoting vengeance against any other races, then ok liao what!

Yah, erm that's all I have thought about on this topic for the time being lah... erm.... I've just scanned the contents... it's a relatively safe entry.... I hope.

Today, I think that...

2005-09-12T01:50:00.000+08:00

Reality shows r evil. They promote deceit, distrust and cunningness, which would very likely have not happened, had there been no such thing. I mean yeah, there had always been all these negative feelings amongst humans since we all came to earth, but now, it's so prevalent on tv that it sort of makes people think that it's normal, and it's fine. We'll slowly all morph into evil characters, if this continues to go on.

用尽一生的爱。Very very noble. But I'm not sure if I can really do it. And I'm afraid. What if I really can't do it?

My ultimate weakness is, I love myself too much.

Erm... just a very disorganised entry lah

2005-08-29T00:20:00.000+08:00

Lately I keep having this desire to record my singing voice using the digicam. I love singing, and I want to listen to how I sound like and improve. But the result was..... INCREDIBLY FUNNY. I almost fell out of my own chair when I listened to my own voice. I sounded like some CARTOON!!! It's like so.... *shudders*. Oh, in case anyone's wondering, I'm not trying to be some wannabe lah.... No interest in becoming an artise. But I do like singing, nicely and show it in KTV haha.... Yeah yeah.... I'm a big show off. =P

Oh erm regarding my entry last week, I'm fine liao... my LaO GonG made me realise alot of things, and well, I haven't been a really good LaOpO all this time ba. Hrmz.. been really quite unfair to him, all the time he giving in to me. And I thought I was the one who was taking in everything. Guess I should learn to be less self-centred and spare more thoughts for my love and family ba :) Thanks Dear for putting up with all my nonsense time and again. Thanks for always caring for me, no matter how brattish I get. Thankew so much....

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Read yesterday's ST. Many Singaporeans really have nothing better to do. So much so to the extent that they engage in weird things like attending the trials of someone for something that's not even related to them. 120 people queued for 3 hours just so that they could get one of the 60 seats in the courtroom to view the sentencing of Took Leng How. Can you believe it?!?! How bo liao can such people get?!?! It's none of their business what's going on in the courtroom what. If you want to know anything, the media reports would be enough to feed you with the information you need already! What for you go spend time doing bo liao stuff like that instead of spending the time on more constructive activities like volunteering, since you're really so interested and caring to all fellow mankind? It just simply means that you are damn kaypo and do not realise that in order to satisfy your curiosity, you are indirectly adding on to the anguish of the accused's family. Unfeeling idiots, all of you. And you were feeling frustrated cos the process only took 3 minutes when you've queued for 3 hours to get good seats like how you'd do in a free seating concert? Your own fault lah! Nobody ask you to go and waste time doing stupid stuff like that what. Siao one.

And as if the above were not enough to demonstrate the senselessness of stupid 三姑六婆s and loserish uncles, one bloody rude and unfeeling and oh-so-disgustingly-self-righteous man even took it as his right to humiliate the accused's family, yelling away like a madman at the poor sobbing wife. WHY? PEOPLE SAD CANNOT CRY HAR?!?! Just because her husband killed someone means she has to put up with all the shit from you is it?!?! She didn't do anything wrong ok? The family is going through alot for what her husband did already. Can't you people just leave them alone? The matter doesn't even concern you in the first place! SHAME ON YOU!

Well, enough rantings... sighz, just hope that the family will be alright passes and take things in their stride, and that the little boy will grow up well and fine.

Ok... have to start on my mktg project now le... gotta get it done by morrow le. Seems like our group is progressing at a slower pace than others. Must step on the accelerator liao. JIAYOU TO BRILLIANCE!

Ok, that's all for now. Will blog again when I have the time :P

WAH LAU EH!!!

2005-08-25T23:03:00.000+08:00

WLE!!! Bubblemunche has shut down his blog. Again.

WLE!!! My mid-term is next Friday and I'm not even halfway through the lectures yet!!!

WLE!!! I'm lagging behind for all my modules!!!

WLE!!! I got no money to pay my handphone bill!!!

Wah lau eh.

Now I finally know what it means not to be ready for love...

2005-08-17T19:09:00.000+08:00

Not a Good Day

2005-08-17T04:28:00.000+08:00

Today, or strictly speaking, yesterday, as well as today (since it like spans across midnight) is just wrong, to put it simply. How?

1. I was late for the MAB test... heng I didn't miss any of the writing time. Then again, who ask me last minute den study till late night the day before?

2. I lost the bash tix. 5 freaking bash tix. I'll never kiap anything in my book again, unless they're useless stuff like flyers and such, and I can't happen to find a bin anywhere nearby.

3. I've been feeling constipated for the whole day. Since yesterday actually. Constipation sucks. And the problem with my burping seem to have worsened. When I need to belch, somehow the gas in my body just doesn't go into the correct pipe and excrete from my mouth. Instead, it sort of gets stuck somewhere in between and travel back down into the stomach again, which makes me feel bloated and want to puke. It's been like that ever since I had a bad cough a couple of years back. But recently it just seems to have worsened. I think I'll need a doctor soon if it worsens again.

4. On the way to City Hall from Orchard, my foot kena stepped. HARD. By a lady wearing heels. She wasn't rude, she apologised profusely, and honestly it wasn't her fault since the train was jerking. But that it's not her fault and that I don't blame her doesn't change the fact I now have a very painful and ugly bruise on my foot.

5. I was in a hurry and had difficulty coordinating my dressing for the bash. Good thing everything turned out alright. But the process got me so uptight I couldn't relax and I snapped at all at home. :( Sorry Ah Ma, Sorry Mummy, Sorry Pig Da Jie...

6. Yada yada yada~~~

7. Quarrelled. Sighz... Time to talk things out. I'm sorry for making you angry, and leave you waiting up for me when your're not well. But I really need to have a life with my friends. I know it's late, but I'm leaving together with my friends, with my friend driving me home. It's safe enough, and I feel that I'm not being irresponsible about my life. Yes, you might not have seen them before, but does that mean they cannot be trusted? I've known them not for very long, just 8 months, but I trust them. I'm too trusty? Not so. I don't necessarily trust everyone. But I do see them almost everyday in school and I'm close to them. We've gone clubbing together before, and they have never harmed me, but rather, accompanied me and made sure no weird strangers come near me or the other girls. I know that I'm safe. And besides, I feel better with my friend driving me and others home in a group, rather than having to go home alone with a taxi-driver who's a stranger. Besides, if I don't enjoy myself now, when am I supposed to do it? When I'm 30 and have kids to look after? I'm willing to settle down, and I know I'm the kind who'll want a stable life in future. But I'm young now. I wanna have fun, and experience what other people in my age does, without always having to worry about the time. At least, I will have no regrets when I do settle down in future, cos I've already done everything that I wanted before. Yes, I'm talking differently from last time. But it's just part of a self-discovery... it's what I really want. But I had no idea how to break it to you. As for the constant dragging of the time to go home, I just didn't want to say 3 at one shot, for fear of upsetting you. But in retrospect, I realised it's kinda stupid to use this method. Should have told you all at once. For my going home late, it's not that I don't listen to you anymore. But as I've mentioned just now, I just need a life outside of BGR, with my friends sometimes, without having to worry bout anything else. I feel more balanced this way. I really hope that you'll understand. You'll say I'm stubborn. But when I find there's nothing wrong, I'll stick to it. I'm not harming myself, or harming anyone, so, there must be nothing wrong with it! For the part bout putting myself in others' shoes, I know you all worry, you and my family. But please, it's my life... please let me live the way I want it to be.....

So tired.... think I'll sign off here for now... Tomorrow will be a better day. :)

Love,
Larlin

It's me again

2005-08-10T04:06:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. was writing a post just now.... but got disconnected. I'll just continue...

I was saying that I felt better after a shower... but now I'm feeling all sticky again. Weather's been hot lately... but still, I'm not as stressed out as just now. The bath did do me good. Well... This week is going to be a busy week. I'm having a meeting for my marketing project later, and also a study group for my MAB. For the unitiated, MAB means Management Accounting and Business, and in SIM, it's taught by a dowdy and boring Auntie who goes by the name of Bean Lai. Don't ask me where she got her name from. I don't know... perhaps she was an avid fan of Mr Bean? Anyway, that's beyond the point. The point is, I'm totally clueless as to whatever's been taught in the subject so far. But I think it also has to do with me being late for lectures and missing the front parts. I barely scraped through Introductory Accounting last sem, and this sem, I'm faced with an even bigger challenge. Wish me luck. Frankly speaking, I'm contemplating not to go for the optional test next Tuesday. Bad student hor?

As for the marketing project, I'm trying hard to stay on track... hope what I find will be useful... but it's obvious that I need more stuff lah... but I'll need more than just the internet. Offline, there's not much things in print for me to research on. So I guess we'll have to do an interview with the company soon.

Then, there's the Sports Day coming up on Thursday. And later, after study group, I still have to attend the Sports Day meeting at 5 pm... it's gonna be a long day tomorrow. And I don't want to eat in school. Will have to dabao sth nice to eat...

Projects, tests, council... I'm feeling kinda breathless liao...

Had a talk with Yanwei just now. Both of us agreed that I'm not cut out for business. Haha... It's obvious. I'm always clueless to everything in the projects... whereas I have my own opinions when talking about other stuf... like history, current affairs etc. Not to say I'm good at those, cos I am not, but at least I have an inkling of fwhat the things I'm talking about are, I know enough about them to form my own opinions, and I enjoy thinking and pondering bout them. Most importantly, I can air my opinions without feeling like an idiot who knows nothing. My self-esteem has been reducing gradually, and I really don't like that, sighz...

Much of it has to do with myself of course. If I'm willing to work really hard, I guess I should be able to do it? So I'm trying to be more on track with the world I'm in now. Trying to infuse myself with the business kind of thinking. Hopefully I'll be able to come out of the doldrums that I'm in now ba. Besides that, I also have to kick the habit of procrastinating. Been saying that for very long liao.... but... hard leh.. I'm doing better now already, but not good enough to succeed. As long I don't procrastinate, I'll have more time to do my stuff and also do them well. JIAYOU!!!

Well, so much for that. Cannot NATO anymore. Shall start tomorrow, or rather later. Time to catch some sleep for the long day ahead... Cya again peeps.

I'm SICK of Myself.

2005-08-10T01:58:00.000+08:00

Damn it. I'm sick of myself never thinking much bout anything. Happy go lucky ain't that good when you take it too far. It's proving now to be more of an obstacle to me than anything else. I've lost the ability to think and discern. And I'm trying hard to regain it. But it's hard. Very Very Hard. Shit. Help.

Of Hiao n Dinners n Happy n Cravings

2005-08-01T00:50:00.000+08:00

Last Wednesday, I was so hiao that I went to have painted acrylic nails stuck on my original nails. The nails are painted in an elaborate design of pink and white swirls, with diamentes neatly spaced out on them. I bought the nails sometime back already... when the GSS first started. They were going for half price at $19.90 a set. It's hand painted and takes a freakin long time to do, that's why it's so expensive. I saw how this girl was painting the acrylic nails in the shop and I was like 'Whoa'... She had to pay attention to every single detail, and paint the designs properly with a paintbrush lookalike, so that the colours won't run into each other, and decorate them with glitter and diamentes. I like the design lah.... but Lao Gong said it's sorta messy. Hehe.... but I still like the swirls.... haha...... actually, just give me anything in pink or blue and I'll think it's nice. Haha..... but I'm going to take them off tomorrow.... cos it's sorta becoming a hindrance to me.

Long and painted nails look nice. But it's LOOK only. Other than that, they aren't of much use. With those nails, I can't type properly, can't open cans, can't twist my newly pierced earring, and can't press sms! You know how long I take now to key one sms consisting of less than 20 words? Almost 3 minutes!!! Those nails are really bothering me in daily life... Gotta remove them. It makes my heart ache though, after all the money I've invested in them. But well..... I'll take it as a lesson learnt. No more long fake nails after this.

The nice but useless swirly long nails.

*Rewind time to the Sunday before.*
I met up with my JC friends, Yvonne, Kelvin, Junming and Guanyao. We were supposed to meet at Bugis at 8.30 p.m. for dinner. The timing was pretty late cos Kel had to work till 8 at Carrefour. He wanted us to eat at this Vietnamese restaurant called Va Va Voom, but Yvonne was there early with her sister's family, so she ate dinner with them at 老地方. And as for me, I was studying at Shaw Tower before that, and since I can't eat the food at the Vietnamese place, I had dinner on my own at Roma's Deli before heading down to meet Yvonne at Kino. After that, she accompanied me to pierce my ears and we did abit of walking, with me ending up with a new skirt with brighly coloured stripes. Heh heh... The shopaholic strikes again. I have to stop though. Finances running low again. Met the guys after that, and Von and I watched them eat their dinner at Va Va Voom. Chilled out at C.A.N Cafe after that..... enjoyed it. Hehe... had a nice time talking over our drinks. And the best part was when Lao GonG came to look for me at the cafe! Hehe... I was missing him real badly for the whole day, and was I happy to see him there! He had been at Suntec with his friends, and he walked over to take train at Bugis just to look for me!!! I'M SO HAPPY!!!!! Hehe...

And then, 2 days back, on Friday, I had another dinner again. This time with ex-colleagues from SSL and also Angelina and Hwee Ying from APL, the latter whom I met for the first time that day. Had talked to her over the phone for work before, and also started MSNing recently, but only saw her for the first time on Friday. She's very nice leh... not at all like the impatient girl in the emails that I received from her at work. Guess work makes everyone cranky. That day was her last day at APL. She's going to NUS to do her degree. So good! *Envious* Anyway, we met up for dinner at 老地方 at Apollo Centre. Hwee Ying just told me she loves the food there and she'll like to go back there again. YAY! Haha... and I suggested that the next time we go there, we can go 茶人 at nearby Lucky Chinatown to sing KTV after eating. PERFECT! Haha...

Happy. Yes. These 2 days I've been a happy little girl... went to find Lao Gong for these 2 days. Things are going on well! The weird feelings aren't there anymore... hehe so happy.... must try hard to maintain it this way and make it better! I don't ever want the weird feelings to come back... very sad de... hehe... HAPPINESS RULES!

And cravings. Well, I was having this huge craving for satay bee hoon just now, thanks to the Lifestyle section of the Sunday Times. But so late liao the stall of cos close liao lah. So have to wait till tomorrow loh... Anyway, the craving subsided abit after I ate a packet of instant noodles and some biscuits. Haha... So, we'll see how morrow ba.

Mmm... I'm getting sleepy le... *Yawnz* Think I'll go sleep now. Have to wake up early morrow and do some research for my marketing project. I'm so not confident of myself in this project. HELP. Hopefully I do manage to do something so that I don't let my team-mates, and most importantly, myself, down. All the Best to me!

That's all for today. Goodnite Everyone!

I'm the most dateable blogger in blogosphere!!!

2005-07-21T02:22:00.000+08:00

Oh my... all along, I thought that I was just a plain jane.

That I'm so boring I will just fade...... fade into the dust with time.

That I'm never going to become the hot babe that I always wished I am.

But... But... BUT....

Never in my life would I have expected that I'll be deemed as :

OMG!!!!!!!!! I wanna thank my parents, for giving me the beautiful genes that made me what I am today, and also my family and friends for always supporting, and of cos, all of you out there, who made me the Most Dateable Blogger on blogosphere!!!! THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!! *Flying kisses*

Disclaimer: The above is all written entirely out of my own wishful thinking, with credits to http://www.wannabegirl.org/awards/index.php

You Know You're Fat... ...

2005-07-14T01:31:00.000+08:00

When even your mother says so! :(

情难枕

2005-07-10T02:32:00.000+08:00

Lately, this song has been playing itself over and over in my head. Maybe it's cos of what I've been thinking for the past 1 or 2 days? Don't know... Anyway, enjoy :

情难枕唱: 林慧萍

如果一切靠缘分何必痴心爱着一个人
最怕藕断丝连难舍难分
多少黎明又黄昏
就算是不再流伤心泪
还有魂影梦牵的深夜
那些欲走还留一往情深
都已无从悔恨

早知道爱回这样伤人情会如此难枕
当初何必太认真
早明白梦里不能长久相思不如回头
如今何必怨离分
除非是当作游戏一场红尘任它凄凉
谁能断了这情份
除非把真心放在一旁今生随缘聚散
无怨无悔有几人

Summary

2005-07-08T00:24:00.000+08:00

Ok... don't really have much time and energy to blog for today... so I'll just do a summary of what's been happening since the time I last blogged.

Basically, well, nothing really much.... went for orientation on 29th June... had great fun with the freshies. Boy, were they spontaneous. When there was a lull in between the games, they took the initiative to play something else, in this case, Murderer. Great! They were quite on during the games too, and when orientation ended, a small group of them actually gathered to go for dinner together. Glad that they were able to form the bonds so fast. All the best to u guys for the sem! :D

Then, after that, went to work for the Mattel warehouse sale... that one ah... got quite alot to write... details in my next post ba haha... hmm and after that, school started 2 days ago...ok loh... Bean Lai the MAB lecturer was boring to the core. And well, went for council interview loh.... then Wednesday was rest day and today was back in school doing Macroecons...... ok lah..... Sami is being his lame self as usual, but it seems that this Macro thingy is quite easy to score..... I shall work very hard and try to do the best that I can! High Ds n DiS!!!!!!!!! Here I come!!! haha.......

Alright.....that shall be all for now.... will write more in my next post. Cya~~~

I NEED A JOB

2005-06-23T00:42:00.000+08:00

School's starting soon. I'll need money to buy textbooks and pocket money. I'll need a job.

A part-time job where I can work like 2 or 3 days a week.

Anyone got lobang???

In the Middle of the Night

2005-06-19T01:31:00.000+08:00

I've realised that the titles of my blog entries aren't exactly that interesting, but then again, I usually don't know what else to name them, and also usually don't take the effort to think of some really interesting title that sounds intriguing enough. Call me lazy, but then again, aiyah.... *shrugz*

Hmm sometime back, one of my friends, Andrew, had told me that I should write more stuff on my opinion about things that are happening around me, or like some thoughts or ideas that I might have, instead of simply blogging bout my daily life. Well, I do admit that my daily life entries can be very dry, but that's how I write mah... Hmm, so I told him that if I tried to write more sophisticated entries, like those of Mr Brown, it'd end up sounding rather phoney, since it's like so not me. It's not that I don't appreciate his suggestions, in case anyone has misunderstood. Rather, it's more of like portraying the real me mah... I'm a simple girl, with a simple mind and well, as you've guessed it, don't really like to think too much (eh, that's a shortcoming that I'm trying to overcome). Anyway, yah so my blog is more of what I feel like blogging at the moment loh. But sometimes things happen and I'll turn all introspective and write some more intelligent stuff than the usual crap that I write (I hope). So yeah, hmm, hope I don't bore you guys too much with the nittie gritties of my life. :)

So ok, back to the original me. Yesterday, or rather, last Friday, was my last day at work! (Yippee!) As you can tell, I've grown rather tired of the job already... been working there for all my hols since 3 years ago, so it's like it's getting kind of mundane. I don't have the mood to go for work at all, and does it only for the money. It's like I'm always late and secretly, I think that my boss might be happy to see me go, since I turn up late everyday and occasionally create some shit that'll have to be cleared up by the poor exec... haha... but I don't think she knows of me going though, since she was on leave and it was kinda an abrupt decision made on friday itself, close to the end of office hours hehe... Cos I was like telling the exec that I won't be able to turn up for work on Monday cos of my orientation thingy, and he was asking sth like how long it'll be or sth like that.... I can't really remember, anyway, the story went that I didn't know when I might have to go back to school again for the next wk, and since I was supposed to stop work like the following Friday, I wondered if I could leave early. And I went on to ask if leaving on last Friday itself was too abrupt, so he said no, and Yippee! I'm free! :D

Well, despite the fact that I'll be quite happy to leave the place, there are some people whom I'll miss alot... people like Linda, Kelly, Lynn, and all in the CS esp Eve, Lianping, and Davine. Linda!!! I'll miss you the most!!! Crapping with you always makes my day in the office. You're funny, and you're nice!!! Enjoyed MSNing wif you in the office, and of cos the shopping trip to Taka wif Kelly, Caley and Lynn... Will really miss you... and Kelly the da jie jie who's always so nice and also Lynn who has to deal with my last minute rates now and then. They're all a friendly bunch of people and I really enjoyed being around them. Eve, Lianping and Davine... Hmm though we've not really like known each other for a long time, with the exception of Eve, I really enjoyed my time with you guys. Lianping the ever mild mannered girl who's always so nice and accomodating. Hmm... Really had a fun time plucking brows wif you n shopping at Citylink that day. Thanks!!! And Eve and Davine, thanks for the fun time in the office..... if not for you guys I think I'll have been bored to death le. And of cos, Alex, who always has to clear the shit for me haha... Thanks to all of you!!!! *Gets a lil teary-eyed* Eh ok..... I'm lying bout the teary eye part, but nevertheless, I'll really miss you guys alot... keep in contact k??? And jio me out whenever you all have time... Remember the Friday steamboat and KTV! kaka......

Ok... hmm... that's about it... the shopping trips with my colleagues, or rather, ex-colleagues, were great. I attacked the GSS with all my might, and landed with quite a few victorious gains. Haha... maybe I'll post pics of my catch in the next blog ba. Quite sleepy for now... shall stop here... hehe...

Ugly Singaporeans

2005-06-16T23:15:00.000+08:00

Some Singaporeans really give their counterparts a bad name. I was watching this current affairs show that broadcast the plight of some maids in Singapore. It's not something new, but nevertheless, manages to put Singaporeans in a bad light. Some don't let their maids rest at all!!! What the... Hey c'mon... they are your maids i.e. they are HIRED to work for you. HIRED. Get it? They are not your slave girls, not your nga wan ok?!?! So now, for every month that they don't take off days, they get $20 reimbursement (maids get 2 off days per month, and if they don't rest for the 2 days, they get paid $20 on top of their stipulated salary). And the story goes on to say that people are now proposing to increase this rate to $16 for every off day that they forfeit. Fat lot of good it does, but nevertheless, it's some sort of compensation to the maid at least. And anyway, it's not alot what. But guess what? Some Singaporeans have the cheek to complain that's far too much!!!! WHAT??? Eh come on lah! You got money to hire a maid, but you have no money to pay just $64 extra a month??? You ask people to work for you 7 days a week already very inhumane loh, and you still want to be stingy about $64 dollars a month? Why? You think people robot is it? People not human, can work for you round the clock don't need rest is it? Eh... they not obligated to work their bodies off like ox for you hor. You want people to do that and yet you don't want to pay them what they deserve?!?!?! Then somemore beat them, punch them, abuse them physically and mentally when they just happen to not meet your over-the-ceiling expectations. Go and die lah... wah lau... Damn cheapskate hor!!!!! And people also humans, also have parents one lor! If you see your children kena tekan by the boss, how you feel? Idiots....

Ok lah... just feel like voicing this out..... Grrrrrr..... what a disgrace........

Tired liao. Shall stop here.

Stale.

2005-06-15T18:09:00.000+08:00

Donno why so no mood today leh... juz feeling v sianz.

No mood.

Later going shopping leh but I juz 'ti bu qi jing'.

Not unhappy leh... Nothing bugging me too leh... Why huh? Why?

Getting this kind of feeling more and more often nowadays. Should I get some life?

*Ponders*

Devastated

2005-06-14T16:01:00.000+08:00

I've just suffered a terrible blow.

I'm utterly devastated.

Gone are those free and easy wkends.

Because...

I HAVE SCHOOL ON SATURDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SHUCKS.

Who am I? (the second time)

2005-06-11T10:50:00.000+08:00

Whoa.... was writing this when I decided to unplug my burner and transfer it onto another computer... and then the internet conked out on the computer I was working on. So here I am, using my sister's laptop typing this out for the 2nd time. Somehow, 2nd times usually don't have as great an impact as the original one, but newaez...

I was thinking about random stuff that came to my mind, and I came to this conclusion :

I must have my own stand. If I happen to get my foot on the right note, good for me. If not, at least I know that it is wrong, and can rectify my way of thinking, and thus accomplish something. It's better than having no stand at all, and thus becoming an empty shell who knows not what to do, what to think, and henceforth be destined to lead the life of a creature merely existing but not living.

I must be more coherent... I realise that I somehow talk incoherently sometimes, not linking details or events the way that they should. This leads to miscommunication and unnecessary squabbles... and maybe also people thinking me weird without me knowing it. No good. I should just say things as they are. As plain simple as that.

I have to start using my brain to think. Hmm I've been quite lazy to think and just take things as they are, resulting in me not knowing what's really happening around me, and reducing myself to being an ignoramus. Time to change. It'll be good for my life as well as studies.

Only when I start thinking, and form my own stand, will I discover more bout the Inner Me... I think, for now. But sometimes it's hard to draw the line between "Yeah this is what I think, because so-and-so says so" and "Yeah this is what I think." Do you guys understand? Hmmm... the self-realisation process is gonna take sometime... probably over the tenure of my whole life. But I think that as I start knowing more about myself, I'll be happier ba?

Good Luck to Me.

Bleah

2005-05-31T11:21:00.000+08:00

Dunno what else to name this entry... no specific idea in mind so there you have it, "Bleah".

Right now sitting in the office slacking haha... Tuesday is always a slack day for me in the office. Nothing much to do, and I hope not many calls to answer too so that I can finish typing this in one shot haha...

So tired.. didn't have enough sleep yesterday. But it wasn't my fault... my stomach felt too bad to fall asleep. Think I ate too much over the past few days again. I felt so stuffed, like my sides were going to split anytime. But Tiger Balm works wonders. One rub with a swat of the burning cream and I was ok within half an hour. Fast. I have to really control myself liao... my tummy growing bigger and bigger! My jeans are getting tighter and tighter too... having difficulty trying to button them up liao... and the bulge that comes after it... well, it's rather unsightly, to say the least. Can't even bear to look at it. Yucks.

Yesterday's weather was scorching hot. I was waiting for the bus at the bustop opposite SIM and I sat down cos my legs were too tired. Wrong choice. I tried to tahan, but within 5 minutes, I jumped up again cos I couldn't take the heat. My feet, barely covered by the skimpy slippers that I was wearing, was fully exposed to the sun, and it was really freaking hot. When I looked at my feet later, they were red. In just a matter of 5 minutes!!! Can imagine how freaking warm it was. The best thing? 2 buses I took were non air-con!!! I wanted to take a nice,comfy, air-con-ed, double-decked 154 all the way to Boon Lay to look for Lao Gong... but as luck would have it, a single deck with no seats came. Nvm... at least it was an air-con bus. But... the air-con wasn't working! Or maybe working but not too well, whatever it was, it didn't make much difference. It was still WARM and being enclosed inside that aquarium of a bus only made me feel more stuffy than outside under the scorching sun. In the end, I really buay tahan and decided to alight at Clementi Station and took the train to Boon Lay instead. When I stepped onto the train later, I felt a sense of bliss. AIR CON!!!! What a wonderful invention... something to be embraced. Haha... Then when I reached Boon Lay, I missed the aircon double-deck 179!!! And I had to make do with another non-aircon bus… wah… sad manz…twice in a row… but anyway, I got to see Lao Gong so it didn’t matter too much. Haha… (k lor puke lor…=P)

Hmm, after reaching JP, went to buy PZ's present first... won't say what they are here, in case she reads this... though I doubt she has the url to my blog. Anyway, we're gonna turn her into a princess. Muahahaha... hmm but I left the presents at Lao Gong's hall. Must go back and collect later. Morrow will be PZ's bday party le. Hmm... somehow I don't really feel excited bout all this kinda big-scale party thingy... cos there're bound to be alot of people whom you don't know... and I'll feel awkward... hmm I hope many of my friends will be going, so at least I wont' feel that odd. Hehehe....

Hmm... yesterday didn't really have enough sleep due to the stomachache... end up today very sleepy..... buay tahan. Had to wash my face to keep myself awake. Worse thing is my eyes kept itching earlier just now... had to rinse it with water too... then did a bit of work and now I'm here typing this... very sian lehz... Results coming out soon... I'm so very afraid... very very very very very very to the infinity afraid.... ARGHZ...

Aiyah don't think le... later got thing to write then blog again ba... =P

I Very Luan!!!

2005-05-28T00:53:00.000+08:00

Eh... that's how I felt at work today.... VERY LUAN!!! Haha... seemed like there were alot to do, n all were coming at the same time... until I very bu zhi suo cuo haha... n I did a little here, and another call came, n I started doing another thing... everytime I decide to sit down n do some paperwork, calls will surely come in n disrupt me from my paperwork... Arghz... lidat how to ever finish!!!! So I did abit here, n abit there, n was very confused as to what I was doing... until eventually I didn't know what the hell I was actually doing. Confusing rite? I know... so now you understand how I felt.....

Anyway, the day started with me going into the office, ya lah... late as usual lah :P and I found my breakfast sitting on my desk. Alex just got promoted and he's treating the whole department to breakfast. Bought all of them BK, but since I can't eat BK, he got me roti n tau huay zhui from the kopitiam below the office. At first I was surprised to see something like a big package, but I thought no more of it and went on to open my tau huay zhui since I'm like very thirsty already. A short while later, my eyes almost popped out from the shock of seeing my breakfast... I was expecting just 2 pieces of toast... imagine my surprise at seeing 3 packets of yeah... 2 pieces of toast... i.e. 6 PIECES!!!! : My first reaction was 'WAH!!!' Haha.... It took me almost 3 hours to finish the whole thing... haha..... rilly power sia... anyway, Alex, if ur reading this, "Thanks again!" Haha... Congrats yeah!

Hmm... then yah... as you guys already know, the work started pouring in, leaving me in an utterly confused state. My vessels last week were full till going to sink...this week one are light till can fly on the waters liao!!!! Sheesh... I'm not doing my job very well leh like that..... must learn how to manage the load factor better... Haha... And I couldn't go home when 5.30p.m. came... and the same goes for everyone. Come to think of it, the part bout being able to go home half an hour earlier on Fridays is pretty useless. As if everyone can really go home at 5.30p.m. C'mon lah... everyone knows that 90% of the workers stay till around 6 to finish their job one loh... So in the end how? They end up working an extra half an hour for free. Freakin cheapskate company. Exploiters!

And what's this thing about a five-day week when people still have to go back to the office on Saturdays? Well I'm not exactly say involved in it or what... but then I just feel like voicing my thoughts when I see my friends getting all the shit from nasty and moronic shippers. I mean, the company really is very bo liao loh... It's true that only 1 or 2 people are needed every Saturday, and you get to claim half day for every weekend you work... but then again... I mean, stop spoiling the customers! If you say 5-day week means 5-day week! And this thing has been going on for about 3 months already!!! What's this thing about getting somebody in on Saturday in case customers forget and call? An email has already been sent out to all the shippers!!! Don't tell me they don't know how to read English lor... *rolls eyes* All have already been informed about the change in office hours! And yet some idiots actually have the cheek to complain to our bosses when they call but nobody answers the phone. HELLO!!! There's only like 1 or 2 persons inside the office but thousands of calls coming in lor!!! Office hours is from Mon to Fri! You Dunno Ah!!! And you actually dare to say that you are just trying your luck, thinking that this justifies everything you're doing and therefore you can have your way and push the booking people around. A-B-S-O-L-U-T-E I-D-I-O-T-S. And you ask why the phone is switched on in the first place??? C'mon lah... it's for emergency matters like something cannot be processed or any other thingy relating to impending shipments lah... not for you people to make bookings ok!!! Complain complain complain... You think what? Everytime try luck try luck then people very bo eng already leh!!! Stupid man... the worst thing is that the bosses also say to try and take bookings when the calls come in during weekends -_-" Oei!!! If you want it to be like that in the first place, then you jolly well don't implement the 5-day week lah!!! Siao ah??? Defeats the purpose right??? Dunno what the bosses are thinking man... Siao Ginna, all of them.

Ok... enough about work... haha... sickening company... Heng I only temp there... can simply heck care. Haha... :P

K, the story goes on that I'm actually meeting SIM friends for dinner after work today, more specifically Uncle Kenny and Robin gong gong, since the rest can't make it, but I guess due to poor response, the outing was cancelled. So, I went for lion dance practice at Sar Kong... haha... and that's another episode of 'Wo Hen Luan!!!'. I've just managed to remember everything again, after not going for a long time, when changes have been made again. Haha... Siao liao... this time everything all become very pattern pattern... till I dunno how to beat liao!!! Plus we not supposed to look at the drum this time, and I'm a goner once I'm not looking at the drummer!!! Imagine this: *Beat beat beat....*, everyone stops and then, a 'KWANG!' is heard from nowhere. (Yeah that's me) Haha... My hands just cannot coordinate with the drum :( Looks like must practise more le...) One good thing about going for lion dance practice is I get to see LaO GonG! Hehe... well, another is that I get to learn alot more loh... and build up my confidence in lion dance by a leetle bit... hehe...

Then after practice, walked with LaO GonG to MRT station. Hmm... haha... anyway we going to see each other tomorrow so doesn't matter ba! Haha...

Then, came back, and came online... the usual lor... but today's Friday so can watch Wo Cai! :D Haha... then slacked for awhile more and then went on to watch Wan Jun on Ch8... so good... they found Wan Jun liao... things are just going to get better from now on... so glad that Wan Jun has a happy ending. Hehe... (You have no right to comment on my preferences for TV Shows.)

Ok ba... that's about it for today... Dunno what else to write liao... hmm... k lah that's all lah.

2nd Day at Work

2005-05-10T15:07:00.000+08:00

Today's the 2nd day at work n the email no longer giving me any problems (fingers crossed). Still quite slack lehz... but ok lah...got calls now n then so I'm not exactly bored out of my wits. Haha... but spent a good amount of time MSN-ing n surfing. Hmm... some ppl actually doesn't bother to read the mails carefully... I'm using Mei Chan's email in the office right now and this freako Dasmond actually replied 'hi mei chan' when I stated in the mail 'Rgds, Lai Lin'. Dumbo... so... i replied him n this time, i wrote 'rgds, LAI LIN'. If he still doesn't spot it then well.... I have nothing to say :P

The office was freezin cold earlier on and I forgot to bring my jacket!!! It was pure torture sitting thru the first half of the workday man... I literally shivered thruout the 4 hrs... then actually wanted to go Amoy for lunch with Nat but the skies looked so very dark and it was starting to drizzle... so in the end we didn't walk to Amoy as planned n I went to dabao vege chickie cutlet rice at the mkt by myself... the rice was nice!!! haha... the food is still as nice after i haven't ate it for 5 months. After lunch I went to get a slice of honeydew and papaya... now very full hahaha... so satisfying... but sad lehz... my tummy growing bigger n bigger liao... n I'm starting to eat more n more... my capacity has been stretched once again... this is no good... hmm I think I must try to control myself liao... sheesh n I ate so much chocs for the past 2 days... siao liao.... all the carbs buddies going to cling themselves to me liao... AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! *Control... control...*

So sian... everyone is going on tours.... Uncle Kenny's going to Bangkok with his gf, Robin's going to China wif his family n gf... and here I am, stuck in Singapore... but ok lah... at least work got money mah haha... n can go indulge myself in shopping!!!! whoohoo... wanna revamp my wardrobe man... n get a couple of pairs of new shoes.... baby heels!!! n a pair of fancy flats, n get a white tote, as well as a nice sling bag... that goes wif both dark n light colours... any suggestions for colours, anyone??

hmm now feeling real slpy... getting a headache liao... go home quickly finish the chores... n try to dong till ard 11 plus den slp... if not later like yest again... slp at 8++ 9 den end up waking up at 1 a.m. n couldn't get back to sleep. End up so sleepy now... no good no good...

Come to think of it, this hols like qutie alot of things to do... gotta work, den I wanna go chiong again during the hols... n I wanna go camping wif dear too.... but I think that oen wait till maybe June ba... den see if the juniors wanna come along... den wanna go MAKEOVER!!!! wahahaha... wif connie and angeline n den wif Deardear! :D but muz scrimp n save... one makeover not cheap... thinking of going Chantel Goh leh... it seems quite class... but like v ex too... anyone got any suggestions? feel free to leave ur comments... hmm think i'll go ask ard, do more research... meanwhile muz start saving... hehe....

Ok lah... that's all for now... if I'm rilly tt sianz I might blog a 2nd time later.... lol

What is Going On?

2005-05-07T02:03:00.000+08:00

wat m i doing..... wat is happening to me??? this is bad... i cannot be like this.

First Time Chiong

2005-05-05T03:39:00.000+08:00

Ah.... juz took a refreshing shower..... now sitting in front of the comp msning n typing this. Juz came home from chionging at zouk wif my classmates from SIM. It's my first time chionging n well... haha it was quite fun! tho i dont really like the smell n getting stepped on n being squeezed about on the dance floor, it was nevertheless quite fun grooving to the music together with your friends hehe... n it helps tt zouk plays retro too! :D oh yeah... n eddie n kenny were nice enuff to help me get a non-alcoholic drink hehe.... den while we were at the table having our drinks, we were playing guessing games haha... poor tintin kept kena sabo-ed lol... all of us kept making him drink hahaha.... we played this game sth to do wif multiple of 5 one... den if the number of fingers shown equals to the number called out, the person after the caller will haf to drink... after tt eddie taught us this macdonald guessing game where the 'leader' will go 'lai dao mai dang lao ah! yao chi shen me hao ah!' den he'll do the action of one food, either a burger, fries or coke n whoever is doing the same thing as him will haf to drink.... and initially i kept thinking it was 'mai dang lao ah mai dang lao' n my frens came to notice the mistake n made me drink... well of cos i had my shirley temple... haha... i don't take alcoholic stuff...... n anyway, the bourbon coke tasted yucky haha... den shortly after we headed for the dance floor n danced the time away... tintin rilly is veteran chionger man! haha... kept groovin n groovin v pro! lol... as usual, i tried my best but still ended up looking like a gawky nut on the dance floor... but better than nothing lah haha... mebbe chiong a few times then practice will make it perfect liao? haha... anyway i had to leave early cos my papa did not want me to be home too late.....so i left at around 2...... robin they all kept making me stay till 3 haha... if i can i oso want nehz..... nvm next time! hey ppl... jio me for nxt chionging session ok...... heh heh..... den when i had to go robin n kenny accompanied out to take a cab..... so nice of them... thanks guys! :D

hmm n now i'm here......typing this..... n having an ultra huge craving for porridge.... nice thicky mushy n fragrant porridge....... *droolz* htink i gonna cook it tomorrow... gotta get some of my favourite abalone mushrooms and sweetcorn........tts gonna make my porridge oh so fragrant n sweet! gotta get some jin qian pian too... n mebbe see wat other stuff i can find at the vegetarian shop... haha... so exciting!!! (ala steph, who kept saying tt on our way to zouk haha) morrows gonna be a bz day... i haf to clean up the house.... sweep, mob, wipe the tables, wash toilet, den hang the clothes den haf to cook my porridge n clean up my oh-so-messy closet of which i've made a bigger mess than wat it already was while i was digging for my black top to go chionging haha... it now looks like a tornado has juz swept thru it or sth... time to clean up........ n after tt rest awhile will haf to go for liondance liao.... hmmm haha anyway, it's gonna be a full n fulfilling day! so happie!!! haha... getting abit tired now... think i better stop here haha.......if not i'll ko before my hair is dry... yup so tts all folks! :D

Exams over liao.....

2005-05-04T16:54:00.000+08:00

Hi peeps.... my exams finally over liao.... forgot bout the last post ok.... i'll be grateful if i don't haf to stay back for 1 sem... but that's like pretty unlikely liao... sighz.... anyway... let me put this at the back of my mind for awhile ba....

hmm later tonite going to zouk.... haha..... first time go chiong lol..... yeah i've always been a good gerl :P haha.... dunno how it'll be like haha....

omg... haven't slept at all for the previous nite......feeling quite groggy now. i'll go get some shut-eye... will continue this post later ba....if i haf the time haha.....

the Weekend

2005-04-17T02:24:00.000+08:00

i'm watching the rerun of the NKF show which i've missed last week... nothing interested me much... except for the cantonese opera and the one which i've been waiting for since before the show began. it's a performance by my all-time favourite 70s singer, Zhen Ni!!!

some people think that i'm auntie cos i like auntie stuff... and for idolizing Zhen Ni... ppl like my sister who seems like she's growing up the inverse way.... fan lao wan tong :P anyway... that's besides the point.

the moment she stepped onto the stage, i was like 'Whoa!!!' she is really really very pretty... i'll call her beautiful. not just at her age, but compared to many fellow females out there. she's really one of a kind. her onstage charisma is so powerful i feel swept away just by watching her performance haha... and she's got personality too.... strong character.... despite being widowed at a young age, she managed to raise her child single-handedly. yup i know there are many single mothers out there who does the same but then, she's really one fiercely independent woman. you can tell it from her looks... i mean despite her pretty face, she does look hardened. hmm.. i'm full of admiration for her anyway..... especially for her powerful vocals. at her age, her vocals are really soooooooooooooooooooo verrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrry powerful. yeah..... most veteran singers like feng fei fei etc do a good job of preserving their vocals...but their songs are mostly very serene ballads....but zhen ni's songs are those that are more..... what do you call that... explosive in nature (thinks *a-mei kind of songs) so it's like..... a lady at the age of 50 with explosive vocals... that really impresses me.... haha.... well, i'm really a big fan of hers. might be getting her collection soon :D cos i don't really have much of her songs at home... ok.... haha.... shall not go on ranting further bout her.....

hmm today was a nice day.... met up with The Gang a.k.a my buddies -- kaiyun, sally, liangzhong, jintian and qiurong haha... TKNP 2000!!! so happy.... haven't seen them for ages..... we all seem to be busy with our own lives now. we have to spread our time over a bigger circle of friends, and studies, and with our bfs/gfs. sometimes i really miss the times when we'll meet every weekend to eat and just nua at some coffeehouse chatting haha... but of cos, we have to fulfill our other commitments too so yeah.... glad that we're all still good friends though and still meet up..... the ties are still there.... i'm so touched whenever i think bout this haha.... hey guys, ur the bestest group of friends that i can ever have!!! :D let's remain friends forever ok? hee.......

ok...better sign off now and get some rest.... gotta chiong bc tomoro....today whole day no study....jialat liaoz.....hai..... muz jiayou le..... JIAYOU PPL! May All Do Well for Your Exams!!!!!!!!

Friday Nite is the Nite~~~

2005-04-02T03:09:00.000+08:00

eh... overall still quite a happie day~~~ hahaha...

went for lion dance after classes... hmm after that went for dinner wif lao gong at lao di fang again... haha... first time we din eat till the shop closed! lol... so its like everything is very relaxed loh... we didn't haf to like hurry ourselves or wat... cos time was still early... haha... den lao gong sent me home today!!! so happie~~~~~ hehehe....

oh hmm and guess wat? i was watching tv when ch8 showed Wan Jun!!! omg... how nice!!!! n first episode summore!!!!! i'm sooooooooooo lucky.... hahaha... muz tune into ch8 everyday at 2 am liao... wahahaha... yes... i do like qiong yao shows... n yes, i do find them touching and they manage to mmake me overflow wif tears... there r probably many out there who dont really see eye to eye wif me but who cares? =P it's nice... and the love stories are just so... ke gu ming xin... hahaha... i used to wish to find some guy who will love me as much as the guys in the shows love their girls.... hehe... and well... i've found one now! :D hehehe..... i'm so in luv~~~~ hmm speaking of perfect guys....i oso like jang dong gun in the korean show bout the newscasters one... the ai shang nu zhu bo... donno wat it's called in english though... wah.....he is...... PERFECT in the show... gentlemanly, caring, understanding.... he's a SNAG and big brother rolled into one.... keke.... dream guy... hahaha.... but my lao gong not tt far off either!!! he's oso like a SNAG and big bro rolled into one.... takes good care of me, cares for me alot... understanding, sweet, romantic at times.... wahhhh :D perfect too~~~ hehehe.... ok.... shall spare u guys from my mushiness liao haha...

okok....think i'll sign off now..... haha... will revamp this blog after my exams.... cya!!!!!

I'm Back

2005-03-28T05:36:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time since I've last blogged.....abt.....3 mths ya? But right now, all I wanna say is.... I'M FREAKIN STRESSED OUT BY THE STUPID IA ASSIGNMENT N THE EXAMS THAT ARE LOOMING-OH-SO-NEAR!!!!!!!!! But still... let's get this over and done with soon.... Press On. And, I still wanna be one of the best. *SmIrKz*

wanna blog... but tired

2005-02-11T01:06:00.000+08:00

Here's wishing all readers a HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! feel like blogging bout events tt haf happened in the past 2 days... but simply too tired... or lazy? dunno...juz feel like not much energy to think and type. haha... hmm so... will stop here for the time being... and once again,

XIN NIAN KUAI LE, WAN SHI RU YI!!! :D

Long time no Blog le.....

2005-01-14T09:43:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps! It's been a long time since I've last blogged.....2 months le!!! Missed me? hahaha... ok... shall stop being bhb now...

It's been a long time since I've last woken up so early... woke up at around 8 today. Fought back the temptation to go back to sleep. Haha... feels good to be able to wake up so early... got ample time to prepare for everything.... not like everytime lidat so rush.... the feeling is good loh... like everything is so organised and going well... then i also feel very good..... hahaha

Hmm CNY's around the corner.... n my house is still in a mess!!! Well, I contributed to 99% of the mess....=P so muz come home after sch today to clean up....n reorganise my stuff... my new notes r getting messy le... hmm....

Well today woke up early n had a morning chat wif Dear on msn before he went off to class..... feels v nice n relaxed... long time since i had had such a nice morning..... haha...

Hmm... think muz rilly find some time to set up my taggy le.... its been gone for too long? haha
kk tts all peeps.... will blog again soon! :D

SLeEe|EeEeEeEeEeEep.................................

2004-11-14T19:31:00.000+08:00

Hi Ppl! Here I am again... Haha... Hmm my tagboard's gone after changing the template... gotta put it back on again... but... as usual, wait till I have time ba... haha...

This is the blog that I'm writing out of home! haha... Where am I? Bu gao su ni :P hahaha... today is a sleeping day... I just slept n slept n slept.... until now... donno leh.. like nothing to do so juz sleep loh haha...

Hmm... time really passes very quickly... I'll no longer be a teenager in another 6 days. I heard that when the mighty '2' has emerged in one's age , time passes particularly quickly and before you know it, decades would have gone by and you'll just look in the mirror one fine day and find that all your hair has greyed. Horrifying!!! I can't imagine how I'll be when I'm old... I don't want to grow old!!!! As you can see, I'm kinda dreading the fact that I'm turning 20. No more a teenager, no more a kid... I have to grow up... sianz... the burdens of adulthood... I don't know how I'll be able to handle them...

Hard as I try to forget bout the fact I'm turning 20, the things around me doesn't allow me to escape from the fact. Friends around me getting their drivers' license, primary school classmates getting engaged, everyone starting to work... All those things that seemed so far away just a few years ago are now all around me... makes it mandatory for me to admit that Yes, I'm growing up...

Growing up is a big challenge. You meet more and more people and you have to learn how to deal with them. Every kind of person has to be handled in a different way. This is one thing that I've learnt in my working days. You are also expected to be decisive enough, and also to have good judgement of the people and happenings around you... this, I'm still learning. No longer can you be playing around everyday, it's time to get serious, especially where work is concerned. It's hard for me not to act like a kid... sighz... But I guess I have to ba...

Growing up... quite a fearful thing, but at the same time nice... it's kind of a bittersweet kinda thing ba... and all things ahead of you will turn out to be perfect, if you manage to grow up right.. haha... ok... thats all for now... will blog again if I, (yeah you've guessed it) Have the time. ;)

Till then, That's all folks~

Sleepy...

2004-11-12T03:01:00.000+08:00

Hi All..

It's been a long time since I've last blogged... haha... somehow just don't seem to have the mood or time to do so... or maybe I've gotten used to excessive rotting... *shrugz* haha...

I've done some minor changes to my blog, namely to change the template and the description of my blog... Well, I'm still using a default template from Blogger... I just want to see some changes lah... grew sick and tired of the old pinkish template... Hmm I'll work on a major revamp on my blog when I have the time ba, probably over the long weekend... haha... and if you happen to be reading this, you'll have known that I've changed the url of my blog as well. It's actually to fit my blog description lah... and anyway, I've realised that 'pennyformythots' is kinda long and bothersome to key, so here's the change.

Feeling kinda sleepy right now... it's already 3.15 in the morning le... hafta work tomorrow, but I'm glad bout the long weekend that's going to come... haha... a pity that I have to work on Saturday though, otherwise I'll have a super long weekend... but well, it's better than nothing I guess... shouldn't grumble too much... Hmm kinda realised I keep using dots... now I'm quite tired of seeing dots as well haha. It's time for me to depend less on dots and start using proper punctuation before I deteriorate further in my proficiency of the English Language.

Shoot. I've just heard from Andrew that the new blog address doesn't work... sighz... so it's still 'pennyformythots' Well so much for changing the URL... :P

Sianz. Guess I'll stop here. Will carry on tomorrow. Time to sleep...

My Weekend Out

2004-10-17T01:04:00.000+08:00

Sounds like some primary school compo title right? Haha... But can't come up with any more innovative titles leh... haha... my brain cells are deteriorating liao lah... linguistic abilities also failing... I'm trying my best to maintain whatever I have now though... Alright... enough of this...

Today was great, I didn't have to work!!! Haha... love it. But I ended up oversleeping... I wanted to go wake lao gong up for classes de... end up I slept till 9... OMG... I wanted to reach around 930 or 10 de... then end up I only reached around 1030... heng still in time to wake him up... But actually he already woke up around 10 and was waiting for me le... hehe... hmm then after lao gong went lesson I went home le... heng the bus back to JP wasn't as packed as the bus from the interchange to NTU... if not I think that'd be the end of my poor back.

The bus to NTU was jam packed with people... I felt more like sardines in a can than a human taking a bus loh... and I had to end up below the ticketing machine where there was nothing to hold on to for support except for that metal rod above the machine. So of course, I had to hold on to that, albeit in an awkward posture. And it has to be such that bus-drivers of 179 are always into sudden serves and driving fast in and around NTU... So... my hand was still up there on that pathetic little rod when the bus suddenly swerved to the right. :) Thanks to the rod, I didn't end up falling onto the ground on all fours. But also thanks to the rod, I ended up straining my back when the bus driver decided to add some excitement to the ride by making a sharp turn to the right. Cos of the way I turned with the bus and holding the rod, there goes my back... And now... it's hurting... not too much.... but the feeling's not exactly that great either... Sianz... on top of that... the area around my waist also don't feel too comfortable... Old liao...

Then after I came home, took a short nap then went to meet LZ and Sally for dinner. Went to Bugis Lao Di Fang to eat... the Ma La Mian is getting worse!!! No kick at all. No hint of any spiciness at all. Wah... Sianz man... But the crispy beancurd n beancurd fries are not bad lah... haha... and as usual, I got forgotten again... they forgot to prepare my milk tea... haha.... I always get forgotten at restaurants, I donno why... Am I that unlikeable? LOL...

After dinner LZ brought us to this place called C.A.N cafe... it's along the stretch of pubs and restaurants opposite Mos Burger... Wow!!! That's a nice place! Luv it. It's dim and cosy inside, and the songs that they play are nice. Very to my liking. Haha... And there're lotsa antiques around... those ultra old-fashioned machines that salons used to perm ppls' hair... u know... the thing that looks like a spaceship... and a typewriter that belonged to my grandma's era, and the ice-shaver that was used when my mom was a little girl. And this gigantic Audrey Hepburn movie poster... and there're these cute drivers' license thingy that decorate the tables... So nice! And the best is that they serve non-alcoholic drinks too... friendly for me. Haha... oh and to soccer fans out there, they do show football matches in the cafe... It's a nice place!!! Hahaha... muz find a chance to go there again...

Then came back, changed, and here I am blogging... ok lah.. think shall stop here now... hafta save some of my brain cells for tution morrow...

Cya everyone and have a great Sunday! ;)

Today...

2004-09-17T19:35:00.000+08:00

Aye… long time no blog liao… haha… hmm what should I write about? Hmm…. Don’t know… shall just write as I go along ba… oh anyway, I’m writing this using Word in office… which means I’ll post this only after I get home…

Hmm first thing, I’m gonna to switch department again! Haha… that’s like the…3rd time that I’ve changed department? Lol… this time I’m going to SOC customer service… scary… their phone ring non-stop one… worse than COC! Although I do get bored out of my mind over here at Import Status, I do like the relaxed environment… and not to mention 2-hour lunch. Hahaha… and over at COC, I was still able to come out like 15 minutes earlier for lunch everyday… which is very important to me since I have to walk all the way to Amoy to buy food… but over at SOC they can only go at 1 on the dot! Sighz… I know that’s how things are supposed to be in the office, follow the clock. But still, 1 o’clock means I have no time to go buy from Amoy and then come back le… means I got to ask Auntie to help me da bao the eeky food from market everyday… haiz… and I gonna be drowned in phone calls again too… Telephobia’s gonna return~ =S And I think I’ll be able to chalk up some overtime there… which enables me to earn more… might have to work on Saturdays again too… but that means I’ll spend less time with Lao Gong! Haiz… but I guess it’s also for the better ba, since his exams are coming soon… should spend more time on studying… I cannot distract him! Mmm I must be a good Lao Po and support him morally and not distracting him. *Nods firmly*

Another thing… and this is kinda freaky. I’ve started talking in my sleep! Duhz… I’ve never done this before in my life. Never ever. But I’ve started to do so recently, and it was pretty loud for the 2 times that it happened. The first time, I screamed ‘AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!’ and woke up. The second time, I dreamt that I was scolding someone, and I shouted in my sleep and woke up. This is so FREAKY!!!! I don’t know bout those frequent sleeptalkers… but it’s really freaky for someone who has never done this before in her whole life. I don’t know why I’m doing this… Sharks… no wonder I’ve been feeling so tired recently even though I’ve had sufficient sleep. I think I should start to think lesser… and just… sleep. Maybe then I’ll have dreamless and proper sleep again. Or even if there’re dreams, they’ll be nice ones instead of nightmares. K. I’ll do just that.

Hmm have finally uploaded the pics I took at Chinese Garden le… haha… great. Once I figure out how to post them online, think I’ll do so ba… haha…
Kk… think that’s all for now… will blog more if I have the Feel when I get home… haha…

Happy Day!!!

2004-09-13T03:33:00.000+08:00

Today is a happie day. Not cos of tuition... that's like routine, so there's nothing very nice about it. Hahaha... Today is a happie day cos, I'm going to Chinese Gardens wif Lao Gong! Wahaha... So happie... can take pics oh... n see the cute lanterns. Hehehe...

Today I brought my sis's digicam along... in case we really going to Chinese Gardens. Cos it was sorta unplanned and I just brought along and see how... even if we didn't go I can still snap lotsa pics. Heh heh heh... I love to take pictures!!! Of everything. Erm... myself included. Lol... Call me narcisstic, but I love to look at the camera and say 'CHEESE!' Hahaha... but of course, one can't always take pictures of oneself alone. It's so lonely... so, I have a Lao Gong to pei me! Hehe... With him to complement this plain jane here, the pics will look nicer... :D

After tuition today, I went to meet Lao Gong and eat spaghetti together... hehe... was famished before that. After the satisfying..... um..... what do you call lunch + dinner? Lunchner??? Aiyah whatever, so after the meal, we settled some other stuff and went to Chinese Gardens. Went to see all the lanterns... got very big Mickey Mouse and Minnie! Both the adult and the babies... so cute de!!! Then got lotsa other Disney characters too like Winnie the Pooh n friends, Aladdin, Beauty and the Beast, and also more recent ones like Lilo n Stitch and Finding Nemo... there was an outdoor cinema showing Finding Nemo too... hehe... oh and there was also a very cute Pigsy! He was drunk and snoring away. There was this snoring sound that came out and they made his stomach go in n out! So real! Hahaha... Really very cute... Took some pictures, and some wif Lao Gong too~~~ hehehe... A very happy day...

Then after that we went home around 10 plus... sat around drinking some coffee freeze n iced tea first... cos we were really tired and thirsty... climbed lotsa steps... hahaha.... But though we were tired, we were very happie!!! :D Hehehe...

Ok ba.. I'll stop here le... if not morrow can't wake up... gotta go sleep le...

Nitez!

Yet Another Day...

2004-08-31T23:40:00.000+08:00

Before Lunch :

Another day in the office, and I’m feeling real bored again… *sharks… GM juz walked past me and saw me doing this* Duhz… so suay… Haiz… I’m really very bored… there’s nothing to do… not even photocopying and filing… arghz… yesterday was best. I played ‘Who Wants to be a Millionaire’ straight from 2 o’clock till 6. Power right… Super slack…

Then today I overslept. I woke up at 8.40am and I was like ‘OMG! ShArKs~’ So I quickly scrambled out of bed and took a quick shower then rushed to take a cab… managed to reach office before 930 but it’s like still quite paiseh… morrow muz set alarm le… forgot to do it last night~ :S

Now on slacking mode again. But no more Millionaire… just typing my blog and see what else I can do next. Then now msning Lao Gong… hmm I wonder if they’ll really keep me here all the way to December since I’m sort of like wasting the company’s resources. Haha..

Hmmm k lah… that’s all for now… will add on to this if have anything interesting happens later.

4.38 p.m.

Sian ah!!!! Today’s worse than yesterday!!! I did absolutely nothing!!!!! Not even filing. Came at 9.30, sat down, stoned. Stoned till 12.30, went out buy food, came back, ate with Nat upstairs. 2.00, came back down to the office, stoned… till now. Wonder what I came here for… feel sleepy but can’t sleep. Want talk on phone but can’t talk. Only can stone and stone. What kind of life is this?!?!?! Duhz…

Just now went to Amoy to get some food… dry noodles… nice! There were lotsa mushrooms and vege… haha… my fav… think the Auntie gave me more mushrooms cos I didn’t want the vege char siew… eh… quite worth it leh… so much more mushrooms for a small handful of vege char siew… hahaha… but the chilli wasn’t spicy enough… gotta ask Auntie to put more next time… or mebbe I go bring my ma la jiang. Haha…

Sian loh… been slacking till now loh… Wah… really bth liao leh… if not for the money… I’d go and do more interesting stuff. But I need the money… *sobz* By right I shouldn’t be complaining too much leh… good money, get to slack. But then… why don u all come try it out for yourselves?!?! Time’s really crawling slowly….slooowly….slooooooooowly….. MADNESS!!!

I gonna be driven to madness soon if this goes on… gl hf to me~

Tired~~~

2004-08-31T23:07:00.000+08:00

FOREWORD
This was written yesterday on 30/8/2004. But this pc here doesn’t allow me to blog so I have typed my entry in Word… but hahaha… didn’t post it up… anyway, think I’ll post it up tonight.

Yeah…now at office… have just finished one lot of filing… gonna have more later I guess.. Ever since I’ve come to import status, I’ve done nothing but filing and zapping docs. Kinda wasting my time away… but then again…I don’t really have much to argue with the 2-hour lunch break haha… feeling real sleepy now…but can’t sleep… so tong ku… haha… didn’t get enough sleep yesterday I guess… n my stomach’s feeling kinda queasy now too… Sighz…

Yesterday was a tumultuous day… so many things happened… well, not really that many but the impact was very great… the event in the night… made me nervous, made me scared, made me guilty, made me sad, and made me feel painful for my Lao Gong… ok… I seem to be getting to nowhere here… so lemme just start by describing my day in order of the events that happened.

Nothing much unusual when I woke up in the morning. Woke up, brushed my teeth, and turned on the computer and started checking my email, msn-ing and listening to MP3s. I played Leslie Cheung’s Jin Sheng Jin Shi again and again… so nice… so sweet… longing to sing that at KTV. Haha…. Reminds me of my Lao Gong… J Then Lao Gong woke up… talked to him on msn for awhile…. Then went to bathe and got ready for tuition. When I got there, as usual, my student was jumping around… but I managed to scare him into obedience for a little little little little while… but then again, after that momentary obedience, he also didn’t dare to make too much noise when laughing.. Guess being fierce sometimes really helps. Haha… Kids will still be kids afterall…

Then following that, went to meet up with friends from A7. It has been a long time since we last met up. So there were quite many things to say.. and boy… was I happy to see Yvonne… I missed her so much!!! My qin ai de mah… hahaha… We went to eat dinner at Lao Di Fang in Chinatown then went to OG for a little while to walk around. Saw a small Adidas handbag for $25… hmm quite reasonable I guess and looks nice too… but of cos… it wasn’t that necessary… so I didn’t buy it. And my mom would surely have nagged at me if I had bought that anyway… haha… but it was nice looking at the bag… After that we went to Coffee Bean for a cup of..what else? Coffee. Sat inside for quite long…bout 2 to 3 hrs ba… and talked bout many things in there…. From our current lifestyle and wellbeing to sex, breasts and porn haha… Well, typical lah… Yvonne’s there mah…. Lol… It feels good to gather together again and talk like old times… aye… and we reminisced bout some of the epical facets our classmates have gotten into in the past haha… but I won’t mention them here for the privacy of those concerned. I’m nice k… haha… right… go ahead and puke. Then after that took a lot of pictures at Boat Quay.. and while we were there, we found a pub named ‘One Nite Stand’ Omg… what a suggestive name… hahaha… lewd~ Then Mei Ting asked whether we wanted to go One Nite Stand… and we were like K Lol… so ambiguous… haha… but of cos we know what she really meant lah… But anyway, we didn’t go for that One Nite Stand afterall… which was good, since I don’t drink. Haha.. We just ended up spending the rest of the night snapping pictures, capturing all the memories into all the cameras… The outing ended up with a cab ride home together with Von, Ting and Liqian.

Then I came home…. and turned on MSN… and… sighz…. So heartwrenching for me to talk bout that again.. I always feel this way when I think of conflicts with Lao Gong… sighz.. but I shall not elaborate here for privacy reasons. Just know that when we love someone, we should never inflict pain upon them.

The greatest sin of all is to hurt your loved ones. They are your dearest and your closest. Much as you depend on them, they depend on you too…. Never ever let them get hurt.

Got that in your head?

titleless

2004-08-24T02:15:00.000+08:00

Hihi everyone...

So sian...it's 2.15 in the morning now.....and what am I doing online? Hahaha.... Feeling very sian right now.... and weather's super horrible. Warm, stuffy... suffocating. Suddenly, I hear the song 'Take my Breath Away' from the movie Top Gun hahaha... oops... too lame~

Nothing much to post actually.... but seeing that I haven't been blogging for ages and my friends have probably decided to forsake my blog (boohoo....) I decided to try to salvage the situation and get you guys back. So here I am! Haha...

Sian leh... feeling horrible now. Weather's got into me again. Wah... when will this kind of weather stop? It's been going for some days le leh.... sianz manz~

Hmm nothing much happened today... didn't go to work... went to see the doc and then went to visit my friend... or rather, friends. Haha... den came home and just slept. Woke up bout more than hour ago.... yeah I know.... abnormal lifestyle right.... yah I'll try to get it back on track again.... thanks....

Sian... argh.... this must be the worst entry I ever wrote... but really.... no mood liao..... sheesh.... kk shall continue with this next time~~~~

Hiya... Long time no see~~~

2004-08-11T21:50:00.000+08:00

Hey there ppl... haha... I'm quite sleepy now actually... but as my Lao Gong has commented that I haven't blogged for quite awhile, decided to post something up before I ko... haha....

These few days has been pretty great hahaha... have been feeling very happy... cos I did alot of happy things... and then there was something that came as a quite a shock last weekend... but then again, other than having created an irreversible fact, hmm things are alright now ba... I have to say that I was pretty stunned by that fact initially... but have kind of gotten used to that fact and I believe that things will progress just fine... if I buck up :)

Then went to see a doc today... following that went to watch 'The Village' . That show was quite a disappointment... I expected more horror and thrill but turned out that it's all a hoax put up by a group of people who have been traumatised enough by their life experiences to isolate themselves forever from the real world and create a utopia and live away from the evils. They believe that money is the root of all evil, and that in the real world, human innocence is utterly destroyed. Hence, they recreate a world in a stretch of woods where they live like people did in ancient times and make up the existence of some weird beings - "things we do not speak of" that go round killing animals and humans and mutilating their bodies. Those beings are, in fact, the elders (of the creators of the village) dressed in animal costumes.... the purpose is to deter people from venturing beyond the woods into the town, i.e. the real world. Then there's also this blind girl in there... Ivy... who can see with her heart, and is more aware of whatever that's going around her than any other person. She's independent, and very confident of herself and clear of what she wants. Very brave girl.... I admire her... hehz~ Hmm well, my sis told me the movie is trying to put a message across.... but I still don't get it... Zhiyong said it might be to believe in yourself and to protect those that you love. Makes sense... anyone has a different idea? Maybe we can discuss bout this in my tag..... heh heh...

Hmm ok... think that's all for now... haha... going offline soon.... cya everyone!!!!

2004-07-23T02:09:00.000+08:00

No inspiration, so no title....haha.....

Hmm... I don't really know what to write today... but seeing that all my friends haven't been blogging lately, I thought I should write something so that I can be a little different hahaha.....1.10 in the morning, and I'm feeling kinda sleepy... but hair haven't dry.... plus I wanna talk, so I don't wanna sleep yet. Hahaha... Am listening to my collection of cantopop.... some cheerful ones... or at least, they aren't sad. Haha... Got kinda tired of sad songs.... They're really nice... but at the same time, listening to too much of those kinda influences your mood and makes you feel down... so people, please take note. Don't listen to those songs too often... it's kinda unhealthy.. haha... or well, perhaps it's only for me. Hahahaha..... In any case, I don't think I'd listen to them for at least a couple of days. Hahaha...

Lately, I've been thinking that maybe sometimes people need their own time... and do things that they like and feel comfortable with... go at their own pace.... it'd make them feel better.... People need to have time to themselves, and search for their self identity... by doing things on their own, and then identify what is it that they really like and dislike... know more bout themselves, and find themselves. Haha... In case anyone thinks I'm in one of my mood swings again, don't worry, I'm perfectly ok right now. No sense of melancholy or whatsoever. Haha... Just that I thought of this suddenly so thought that maybe I'd pen it down somewhere.

Hmm... when a person wishes to spend alot of time with his/her other half, it's understandable... but in this way, it's like your life is only centred around the same thing and same person and then you'd feel a sense of loss. Like you're missing out on lots of other people in your life, for example, your family and friends. Especially your friends, since you don't see them even at home. At least for your family, you see them when you get home... And you start to feel guilty towards your friends. And also that you've missed out on alot on their lives... and that doesn't feel good, especially when you've been very very good friends all along. Then you tell yourself that it's time for you to find a balance and give time to everyone. Subsequently, you tell yourself that you should spend more time with them and go out for gatherings more. But when the time comes, you find that it's very hard to do it, cos you just don't want to give up any opportunity of being able to be with your other half. Besides, you want to be the first one to be there for whatever that happens in his/her life, and don't want to miss out on anything in his/her life, so all the more you want to be by his/her side all the time. At the same time, you'll feel guilty bout leaving him/her alone and going out. Haha... and after that, you'll feel guilty for leaving your friends alone.... and the cycle continues... haha... So the way to solve this? Have a good talk with your partner; check that he/she is ok with you going out with your friends. Perhaps you'll find that he/she really don't mind at all!

Most importantly, other than missing out on lots of other people, you’ll also be missing out on yourself. Everything is centred around your other half and “What do I want? Who am I?” you suddenly start to wonder. You’ve been so used to being your other half’s partner that you’ve forgotten who you really are. When that happens, you really have to think bout it seriously and search for the answers. The best way would be to have some time alone and think bout yourself and evaluate yourself, understand yourself. This way, you’ll always be able to have a grip on yourself and not go haywire when anything happens. I’m not being pessimistic here… I see it as a form of self-protection. Of course I hope nothing bad will happen too… hehe….

At the end of the day, all of us just have to be rational enough to know that a relationship ain’t gonna break apart just because of that little amount of time spent away from our other halves. What keeps a relationship going is communication, and the trust and belief that we’ll be there for each other in times of need and also times of happiness. Anyway, as the saying goes, “Absence makes the heart grow fonder.” So that little separation once in awhile might actually do more good than harm! *WiNkZ*

So people out there who’re stuck to their other halves like glue, what are you waiting for? Time to start tuning your lifestyle, and make it more balanced and healthy. :)

SianZ...Vexed...SianZ...Vexed...SianZ...Vexed...

2004-07-20T14:01:00.000+08:00

Heyhey everyone~~~

It's now 1.45 pm and it's lunch time. But I'm not going out for lunch today... Yeah you didn't hear wrongly... Lai Lin the glutton is not going for lunch. *Any problem with that???* It was raining cats and dogs just now, and I didn't want to go out in the pouring rain so made myself a cup of Milo... and guess what? When I came back with the Milo just a minute later, the rain stopped. -_-" What luck. Anyway, I didn't feel like eating after finishing the Milo so here I am... Writing this. Lunch time ending soon... shucks. Soon I'll have to go back to work again. Got to send out those forecasts that make my brain swirl and eyes see stars. Why??? Sigh... ISC vessels are a big pain. Everything have to be precise, but they keep changing this, changing that, delay delay and delay... makes life difficult for me. And just after I sent out a delay letter like only less than half an hour ago, I found out that the vessel is delayed again! Great... so what I sent out was trash. -_-" ARGH~~~ Things are really hard to predict and pin down in the shipping line. Or is it just SSL? *Shrugz* The vessels arrive as and when they wish, and now, the supposed 'schedule' is in a big mess. There's no schedule at all loh... and I don't even know how to answer when shippers ask me how's the sailing like... with things changing as though it's their Grandad's business, how can I answer them??? Stress....

The voice of Ocean (that up and coming Taiwanese singer who simply refuses to show his face) is now all around the office. Haha… my colleague just bought his debut album and is now blasting it on her PC haha… His voice is nice, not bad haha… and his songs have this soothing effect on people… haha… nice hearing his songs… Nowadays with all those rubbish pop in abundance, people like him are quite an asset to the music industry I guess. Way to go, Ocean~~~

Will be going down to Outward Dept (I guess) after this month, still under employment of SSL. Will be staying there till end of Dec. Hmm hope I’ll have an easier time there haha… the work here is really… whoa… hahaha… but well, guess it’s my problem… I have to learn how to handle stress better… Organisation’s the key. I have to learn to be more organized so that I can handle my work better and feel less stressed. And I think I’m beginning to get better at that ;) Hehz…

Hmm I realized that it’s pretty hard for me to come to conclusion to some things cos there are some things that are beyond my control… So how? Don’t Worry Be Happy for the time being loh hahaha… Hey but it’s kinda a challenge for me… cos I can’t help but think sometimes. Newaez, ya… will try! After all, I’m born to be Happy-Go-Lucky hahahaha…

Right… phone calls are pouring in… better get back to work… STRESS AH!

Mixed feelings... Lost.

2004-07-18T00:20:00.000+08:00

Hihi Everyone.... Here I am again....

Hmm... Feeling kinda weird today... abit no mood too.... only managed to liven up myself abit while I'm out with the TKNP gang... haha... My God~~~ LZ has grown bigger... beefy~~~ lol.... and so has Toh... his arm muscles seem to have grown! Everyone has changed a little... oh and Sally had her braces removed. Look prettier loh hehe... erm and my dearest Sabot Ah Kai is still same... but hair is longer... hey... looks like I really haven't seen them for a long long time le... Miss ya guys~~~

Back... was afk prior to starting this paragraph.... haha... had a good n nice cry~~~ Woot.... managed to release many things out. Now feel better... but feels a little cold.... I'm beginning to wonder if crying's an exothermic activity haha... duhz... was feeling lost.... and sad... by right there's nothing for me to be sad right now... everything's still fine as of now... but don't know why... just feel a sense of bewilderness... don't know what to do... and I can't really see what's in store for me.... and I'm afraid of losing what I have right now... but then agian... ming li you shi zhong xu you... ming li wu shi mo qiang qiu... but somehow... I'm juz afraid... haha... I'm blabbering again... Anyway, after crying, my mind's in a blank. Don't feel like thinking anymore... very tired.... juz take what comes? Haha...

K lah.... I go play gb now... haha.... Cya guys~

Reflections in the Night

2004-07-12T20:55:00.000+08:00

Well, actually this entry was posted around 5 to 6 plus... but blogger was down... good thing I saved it if not it'd be like a few hundred words down the drain agian... well, so here goes~~~

It's late in the night and I can't get to sleep. Well, to be more precise, I did sleep for awhile... following which I woke up at 3 plus and couldn't get back to sleep since. Thought bout lots of things, and as usual, wasn't able to get anywhere with my thoughts. All of them came too fast, too furious (yaya... I know it sounds like another movie again...) and I just can't seem to sort things out even after I've thought hard... felt quite terrible.

Anyway, before I start, I'd like to apologise and thank those who have been waiting patiently for this entry. Sorry guys, for making you wait for so long... heh heh... I would also like to congratulate Hexin on her new blog. Hehe... but there seems to be a problem... or is it only me? I couldn't view your blog after I left a comment in there. The page simply loads for a split second and says 'done'. But the blog can't be seen.... hmmm.... now what's the problem here... I sure hope I can view it again soon :D Nice to know what's happening in my friends' lives, esp close ones like Hexin :D

When I was thinking till I couldn't take it anymore, I did the thing most little girls would do. The most primitive way of seeking comfort and protection -- I went to hug my mother. Sure, my Mom was asleep and probably didn't know that I was doing that, but it still made me feel that I'm protected, safe and secure away from all the harshness and unhappiness of the world outside. There's this amazing thing what hugging your Mom can do you know... it's like every fear just disappears. It also makes you realise that Mom is always there for you, no matter what. Everyone else can think your stupid, dumb, useless, whatever. But Mom won't. Even though she might say it out of spite sometimes, we know that she never meant it. When she does say it, we have only ourselves to blame for provoking her and getting on her nerves... And to people out there who still can't get to their senses, when your parents really mean what they are saying when they do so, it's time to reflect on yourself. Parents don't make such harsh remarks on their children for nothing. To make these remarks, it hurts them too and you must have really done something wrong, really incorrigble to make them say those things to you. When things come to this point, do not be angry with them, for they aren't in the wrong in the least bit. Rather, as children, we should think about why our parents had said that and repent. And we should always remember that parents aren't there to scold us; they are there to care for us and love us. So, the only thing we can do is shower them back with love. :)

Right... back to myself... haha... hmm... my Mom's really willing to go the extra mile for me everytime... though she say she's not willing on her lips... but hehe... she always try to do things for me if I request... but I haven't been a good daughter to her... Must try from now! I also realised that I really haven't been spending enough time at home... I always come home late and see my Mom for only a few hours at night.... and of cos not to mention my dear old Grandma who always longs to see me at home... Sigh... Must spend more time at home from now. Cut down on my family's worries, as well as spend more time with them :D

Right.... think I shall end here now... going to be 7 soon... hafta get ready for work le. Quite reluctant to go back after my one-week break.... nvm.... endure!!!! Hahaha...

*Fades into the air...*

Half Day Off

2004-06-30T12:06:00.000+08:00

Hi! Should be in the office already by right but I took half the day off to see a doctor... so I'd be going back later. Meanwhile I'll just bum around for awhile before I eat my lunch and go to the office. Boy~ am I hungry... but I've to wait for at least half an hour after taking the medicine before I can eat... so... have to bear with it.

Today's no longer my last day haha... Susan just asked me yesterday whether I want to extend my employment for another month and of course I agreed! Hahaha... money leh.... who wouldn't want to earn more..... hahaha... but I'd be taking the first week of July off for a short break... heh...

Hmm had a talk with my friend yesterday that got me thinking... Haha... guess it's time I do some self-reflection... reflect upon myself, my ways... the more I think, the more things I uncover that I dislike bout myself and the more I feel ashamed... Actually, some of those stuff, I've already knew it before... but maybe because of the sense of shame/guilt, I kinda refuse to think bout it for too long... like mental block u know? And subsequently forget that or choose to forget the problems that I'm down with. And voila! In no time, the problems resurface and I end up pissing people off. It's pretty cowardly of me to run away from those problems actually... really haf to pluck up the courage to change myself.... and the determination. Will try from now. :)

Oh well... it's getting late.... guess I'd better go out now... don't want to be late for work...

Bye guys~

Tired and Sleepy

2004-06-29T00:51:00.000+08:00

Haha....yeah I'm tired and sleepy right now... cos I didn't get enough sleep last night.... had to wake up for work today.... and after that went for dinner and movie with my friend. Watched 'Godsend'. Hmmm.... it wasn't that nice leh... the plot was like nothing too special.... it's supposed to be a thriller ba... haha.... and some of the effects made me jump....unnecessarily. Apparently, Lai Lin the scaredy-cat proves to be too weak even for such....unscary shows. Oh well~~~

Had the computer to myself in the office again today. Kit wasn't here so Lynn was able to use her pc... hmm... she suddenly took 3 days urgent leave to go back to Malaysia... to visit her father... omg... I do hope he's ok... It's quite a serious thing when old people gets a stroke... Hmmm....Well, this thing got me thinking... Everything on Earth is very unpredictable, and we don't know what might happen to us or our loved ones anytime..... Yeah I know that lotsa people have said that before... but the fact that it has happened to someone so near me kinda hits me more and makes me ponder bout it. Since life is so unpredictable, we really must treasure our loved ones, especially our family where they are there.... instead of regretting only after everything is too late... and we must also learn to be independent and not rely on our family to settle everything for us, right down to the norms of life which we should be able to take care of ourselves... so that at least if something happens, *touch wood* we won't be caught in too much of a fluster, and add helplessness to sorrow.... Hmmm... Ok... enough of such grey stuff. Let's move on to a happie note. Haha....

Hmm....today 2 people down in the office... besides Kit, Nat was also on half day's MC... and there I was alone...so bored.... heng Lih Woei was behind me and I can still turn and talk to her if I feel bored haha... but sometimes even she is busy... and I can only talk to.... customers. *What did u think? Me talking to myself? Hahaha.......* There were quite alot of phone calls... though still much better than some days... and I had to answer them... another fulfilling day haha... got to do lotsa stuff instead of just sitting ard n nua like I've been doing for the past 2 weeks. Hahaha....

Omg... I wanna continue this... but my brain is currently on a strike and refuses to work itself... *YaWnz*

Yah think I'll stop here.....

*Snorez*

Thoughts of the Day

2004-06-27T01:33:00.000+08:00

FOREWORD
I realised that my last blog... was quite unfeeling and crude... argh... it's just like I'm denouncing those ladies at Geylang and talking as though I'm oh so high n mighty... argh... I feel rather ashamed of myself actually... :S Although they won't be able to see this but I'd still like to apologise for all the crudeness in my blog... Sorry...

MY DAY...
The day started off with work again. I had a hard time waking up though, having slept at only around 5 last night. Haha... I actually woke up at 830!!! Well, thanks to the taxi industry, I got there just a few minutes late... lol... Work was pretty busy today compared to weekdays, reason being I have the whole computer to myself. Really did some work today and it felt pretty fulfilling haha... it felt many times better than just nua-ing in the office with absolutely nothing to do except for the occasional trips to the pantry to get water... lol... then cleaned up the table... Had to. It was dusty haha... and I don't want the next person sitting there to think I was some kind of dirty freak who doesn't bother to keep the table clean...

Went to meet up with my friend after work, and only went home around 10 plus. Took a cab from Boon Lay back, and on the way had the chance to listen to songs playing from the car stereo. The uncle was listening to 97.2 and boy... they really play good old classics at night... well... maybe not that old... but at least classics from my time... (that'd be the late 80s to early 90s) haha...

The first song got me thinking bout some stuff. The song was 'Wo De Shi Jie Zhi You Ni Zui Dong' (Only you know my world best) by Kenny Bee and ex-wife. Back then they were so loving haha... and sang this sweet song together. Who'd have guessed that in just a matter of a few years they'd be separated and hurling abuses at each other as though they've been enemies since their past lives? Humans are so unpredictable... and events in life are very unpredictable too... one moment you can be lovers, and the next, arch enemies. I'm thinking... "Why does it have to be this way?" Even if you can't be together, you can at least be friends? or at least acquaintance ba... Why do people have to hate someone they have loved so much once upon a time? Sighz... it's such a shame...

Next song that came up was Nicky Wu's Zhu Ni Yi Lu Shun Feng (Bon Voyage)... Such a touching song... even now I still get that kind of forlorn feeling when I hear that song... and I suddenly remembered the time in P5 when Cherlyn was going to leave Singapore for Australia... cos the atmosphere was sorta like what was being depicted in the song. We weren't exactly the best of friends and had subsequently lost contact. But the song just reminded me of her haha... and of primary school days...

Those songs made me feel that I'm growing old le... Haha... Time flies... It seems like yesterday when I was leading a carefree life in primary school and now here I am, approaching twenty in a few months and bogged down by troubles, though not serious ones haha... One really has to cherish the present... if not, you'll end up always looking back and harbouring regrets and life won't be happy then. Haha...

I hope everyone will learn how to cherish the present and live for the day. Learn to enjoy the bliss of life... Hehe...

*With Love*

Bored. Interesting. Happy. Tired.

2004-06-26T02:47:00.000+08:00

The above are the various ways that I felt today. My day started off boring. Woke up at 8 as usual and went for work. Work was extremely boring. No PC as usual... so I just nua.... n nua... n nua... n tried my best not to fall asleep until 1 o'clock. Will be leading that kind of life till Wednesday... Like my friend says, "GL HF" Hahaha... Nat wanted to ask me if I was going to Amoy for lunch today... she wanted to ask me to buy the pancakes again haha... Hmm the pancakes are real nice... and the best thing is they're vegetarian! Hahaha... *Yumyum* Well, as it was, I was taking half day off and thus won't be buying any lunch back. When I asked Nat to go Amoy herself to buy, she gave me a "Are you mad?" kind of face. LOL... no one's willing to walk all the way to Amoy to eat... But it's quite worth the walk actually, the food there is nice! Well, I don't know much bout other stalls... but all the vegetarian stalls I've bought from so far whips up mouth-watering stuff.... OMG... my mouth is starting to water.... I'm hungry... =(

The rest of the day went pretty much the same, i.e BORING and when dinner time came I just cooked myself a plate of spaghetti. The plate of spaghetti was pretty um.... hard to swallow haha.... it was dry n sticky.... a big diff from the one I cooked bout 2 or 3 weeks back... everything was just nice... hahaha... don't know what's wrong with it but anyway, I ate most of it up... throwing away a few mouthfuls left cos I was stuffed and couldn't put anything more into my stomach. Yeah so there... Haha... Anyway, feeling stuffed is a thing of the past. Here I am now, sitting in front of the PC and feeling hungry again.... *GrOwLz* (that was my stomach)

After dinner, my friend called and we decided to meet up. Haha... that's when the day started to get more interesting. I went on a field trip to Geylang. All along I've always only walked past where all the food is and have never really seen the red light district (RLD for short) before. Today, my friend brought me to see the darker alleys of Geylang and I was exposed, thought not much, to the world of the RLD. Ok... I might sound suaku here but hey.... it was still an eye-opener for me nonetheless. Saw the ladies there lined up against the dark alleys, waiting for customers, mostly Blangladeshi workers and old n wrinkled uncles to approach them. The ladies there ranged from young and pretty ones, though of extremely limited quantity, (and I wonder why do they have to work there since they are bestowed with such privileged qualities)... and some okok ones, to some who looked really humongous... and I mean.... HUMONGOUS. There was this lady sitting at a table... wearing a pink spaghetti strap top... and Lo and Behold! There were her flabs in all their glory, seeping out from every possible nook n cranny of the tight fitting top... She reminds me as the kind that will make it to the top in the list of criminals under the Fashion Penal Code under Weili's jurisdiction... haha... kk... enough of the mocking. Besides those gigantic babes, there were also some aunties there... yeah... looks aside, they were experienced ba I guess *ShrugZ* Haha... anyway, I think they have some sort of a dress code over there... that is, "translucent and revealing" Almost all had half their boobs shown... and their clothes were mostly figure hugging apparel.... So... a word to the young girls out there... no matter what you think... or you may call yourself liberal or whatever... but it's still best to dress appropriately when you're going to Geylang... if not, you might just end up looking like one, or worse, be mistaken for one of the people there.... Now... that won't be nice, will it?

Right.. After that, went to drink soya bean milk with my friend at Yong He You Tiao Da Wang... Hahaha... bought some Tau Huay back from there for my Mom... but she complained that it was too rough and bland compared to the Tau Huay from Rochor..... Well... It's called You Tiao Da Wang... Not Tau Huay Da Wang... so... I guess you can't really expect much of the tau huay? Hahaha... Yeah that was what made my day happy... just spending some time eating and drinking and talking together.... :D

And Tired is what I'm feeling right now... I'm so dazed that I can't really keep my eyes open... and to think that I still have to work morrow makes me more... sian. Hahaha... and I keep typing the wrong words... my typing has also slowed down... *Yawnz*

K lah... really can't keep up with this anymore.... I need to have my beauty sleep....

Nightz ppl...

*SnoreZ*

....Frustrated.

2004-06-22T21:14:00.000+08:00

I am FRUSTRATED!!!! wrote such a long entry despite my extreme fatigue... and it's all gone!!!! It's just like another Friendster of the past -_-"

Argh... anyway, I was saying I had an absolute boring day today. Nothing to do cos Lynn, the new girl, is sharing the same comp as me, and she needs all the practice she can get, so, she's dealing with almost everything concerning work. And because she's sharing the same comp as me, it also means I can't MSN and surf the net when I'm bored. So what do I do? Sit around and nua. Nua and Nua... zzzZZzzzZZZZzzz

Sianz... will be ending my employment at SSL soon... next Wednesday to be exact. Wonder I'll do then... By then the outcome of the appeals will be out too I guess... Wonder how it'll be? Haha... anyway I'll just get myself prepared to look for another job till Jan ba... haha...

Hmm... I've been thinking about spicing up my blog with photos... but I don't really have any pics to put up leh haha... I voiced my plight to Weili, and, being the narcissist (I juz luv the word haha) that he is, he suggested that I post his pics up. Hahaha... Well, anyone who seconds the idea? A word of caution though : If I really post his pics up, all of you'd have a gorrilla staring down at you each time you enter my blog. How bout that? You decide ;) Um... Weili... no offence k... I'm just trying to be democratic here. *GRINZ*

K lah... think I'll stop here.... back to concentrate on my MSN haha...

Seeya guys!

TiReD~ SLeEpY~

2004-06-14T23:17:00.000+08:00

That's how I'm feeling right now... Haven't touched the blog in days cos I always feel too sleepy to be able to think of what to write. I'm usually sleepy these days... guess I'm really lacking sleep. Gotta go catch up on it... *YaWnz*

Well, anyway, I finally feel awake enough to write this today haha... I notice that my blog has been pretty quiet for some days... no one's tagging anything up! Where have all the people gone??? Haha... so I guess I have to put something up... hopefully things will get going? Haha... Kinda boring now, it seems....

OH NO!!! I juz realised that I have not appealed to NTU yet... sharks... closing for appeal is tomorrow... Argh~~~ even though chances may be slim, but still have to give it a try right? Leave it as now first... I go do my appeal first.

Ok done. I'm back. Haha... Right... Now I'll just sit back, relax and see what happens. No panic, no worries. Life's a breeze when you have a back-up plan all ready. Haha... Well, the correct way of saying this is that I know my own standards, and won't be surprised if my appeal fails and therefore I have to have a back-up plan ready... sad rightz... haha... but anyway, I've come to accept that... Nobody told me not to study hard in the first place... But anyway, this will be the last of failures. I'm gonna put in my best from now on in whatever task that I face! No matter in studies or in life, I'll go for it! Not going to be stuck with regrets when I'm old and gone...

Right now, I'm feeling very happy. Got some things sorted out last weekend... so now feeling light and full of hope. :) From now on, I'll just go being happy and care for all those that I care and not think so much of unnecessary stuff... Hahaha... HAPPINESS RULES!!! *GRiNz*

Sis wanna use comp le... think I'd better stop here. Heh.. Stay tuned! N keep the tags coming!

:D

Today...

2004-06-11T05:09:00.000+08:00

As usual, it's late in the night, and I'm still not sleeping yet. Hahaha... erm does it signify the deterioration of my sleep pattern? I suppose so... but won't bother bout that for the time being :P hahaha...

Right now... nothing much to do... chatting with Zhiyong and Poh Ling... doing this... taking a look at the Lion Dance Alumni webby... nth else much. Haha... Zhiyong's currently working on the webby... hmm... looks not bad heh... JiAyOu oh... oh n of course need help juz say! Haha...

Work today seemed to be on the slack... but time seems to pass quickly this week... I was just lamenting on Tuesday that when will the weekend ever come? And it's already Friday already! Hahaha... Anyway, I'm always happy when weekend comes by... who isn't? LOL... Fine~ I know I'm sounding like some mad idiot here... :P

Nothing much today... juz came home and slept after work.... slept all the way till 11 plus b4 I woke up to have dinner haha... Terrible right... Thinking bout some things now... but then feeling kinda drained mentally n emotionally... so will drop that for the time being n juz slack around online... haha... no energy to think bout what I want to say here liao... guess it's time for sleep...

Seeya around ppl... Oyasumi.

Late in the Night...

2004-06-07T03:19:00.000+08:00

Yeah now's pretty late already... or should I say it's early... hmmm... it's about 3.20 in the morning and I'm still here instead of sleeping... haha... well, that's me.

Just realised that the profile that u put in this blogger thing is pretty limited. I keyed in one whole lot of things about myself... and guess what? When I clicked on "View full profile" for a test drive, not everything that I typed showed. Only like half of every category appeared. Sianz... waste my time... haha... well... ur loss... cos u wouldn't be knowing much about me then :P okok... I'm starting to sound a little narcissistic here... :x

Hmm I'm still here waiting for my hair to dry... and at the same time I'm trying to draft out all the things that I'll have to teach the new staff tomorrow. Yeah... there's gonna be a new girl tomorrow... well I don't know if it's a he or she yet... but it'll most probably be a she lah... the Customer Service Dept is a No-Man's Land... save for Alex in SOC... haha... hmm they said I have to teach her everything I know so I just follow instructions loh... haha... but the things I know are pretty limited anyway... so I'll probably finish everything in one or two days... I wonder where the new staff will be sitting cos our side is currently fully occupied... but I have this hunch that she's gonna sit at my place and I'll have to move to where May sat, in that tiny isolated corner... sighz... good thing is May actually cleaned up the place b4 she left... heh heh heh... *Thanks May* hehe... but it's like... I'll be the odd one out... away from the rest of the department... but aiyah... anything lah... I'll be leaving in 3 wks anyway...

Following that... will have to start finding a new job... aiyoh... trouble again... hope to have some lobang from friends or something... then won't have to go thru agency and give them a part of my pay... wah... very heart pain one lehz... giving them ur hard-earned money every month... Sighz... most prob will be starting school around next Jan or Feb... so will have to work for about half a year more... To all reading this... If you know of any temp jobs hor... Feel free to contact me hor... those guys (girls included... I mean all by the term 'guys') who know bout my blog... u have my number =) Then will have to start scrimping and saving for my up n coming education expenses... (after the Great Singapore Sale, tt is) *GRiNz* To me, now's the turning point of my life... Getting a tertiary education doesn't only mean I'm going to study at a higher level henceforth. More importantly, the sharp rise in expenses, both school fees and general spending (I reckon I'll be out of home most of the time studying and doing work) means I have to start planning my expenses carefully... and making sure at the same time I'll still have savings in the end to sustain the payment of my bank loan after graduation... and speaking of bank loan... also have to find out which bank can give me the loan I need... after all, I'm not going to a local university... and I don't think all banks provide loans for degrees taken privately. At the same time will have to check out the best interest rates and everything... No wonder they say u learn to be independent when u reach university level... cos everything u really haf to think n do by urself... and there are many things that you'll have to consider... esp the finance part... *head grows bigger and bigger... finds it hard to handle*

I haven't started appealing for NTU and NUS yet... haha... don't know leh... like no motivation to appeal... cos from experience, I think it's pretty hard to succeed... haha... but of course, I have to grab every opportunity that I can, don't I? So... yah... went to the NUS webby to appeal... but guess what? The server kena overloaded. See? So Suay... I want to appeal also lidat... Bobian loh... wait till morrow... I'll settle all my appeals within the next 2 days... hmm I also have to call up TMC to ask bout programmes being offered by Monash... seems like my list is full of things to do right now... step by step... time to learn to get organised. Organisation is the key to avoid stress ba I think... once ur organised, everything's in check, and confusions are reduced to a minimum, and in turn, u don't get so stressed up... hmm logical right? haha...

K lah... getting late liao (or earlier, for that matter)... think I'd better go n sleep now... muz arrive at work punctually tomorrow! Cannot sia suay in front of the new staff. Hahaha...

Goodnite/Day to All.

Early in the Morning, 3 o'clock

2004-06-05T03:00:00.000+08:00

Yup... now's 3 o'clock early in the morning and I just came out of the shower. And as usual, instead of feeling refreshed, I feel very drowsy... cos the shower made me feel clean and comfortable... so comfortable that I feel like sleeping... but - my blog comes first. Haha... so yah...

Took a day off today... or yesterday, to be exact... cos now's like past midnight already... but... Who Cares? Newaez~~~ So I was feeling particularly relaxed when I woke up this morning... just like 2 days ago... haha... had a pretty relaxed and happy day today :D The off was worth taking haha... Wanted to off morrow too... but... seems like abit too much to take off for 2 consecutive days and since morrow is only half-day, shall just go ba... No matter what... it's still my job and I have to do it... *sighz* But heard there's gonna be a war tomorrow.... I hope everything's not as bad as it sounds... If not... I'll have to go through a second round of bombardment morrow following the first round yesterday... Argh... Dowan to think of it. K. Enough of work.

I've been playing this song Wo Xiang Xin [(I Believe) nono... not the one by Van Fan...itz the one by another 'Fan'... Fan Wen Fang... Fann Wong... hahaha]recently... SURPRISE!!! cos I have a strong dislike for the actress. Hahaha... but... much as I dislike her, I have to admit, some of her songs are really good... though I think it'll be even better if the one singing it was someone else :P This song is good... the tune is nice... and of course I love the lyrics. It sounds sweet... hmm... as unromantic as I am, I still yearn for some sweety stuff in love like this k... don luff hor... hmm... and it always gives me hope... hope that if you believe in it, both of you will be together in the end... Of course, sometimes in the real world things aren't that simple. Many things are involved in a relationship, and one thing leads to another... so sometimes, it's not faith alone that can bring 2 people together... there are many other factors that play a part too... Hmm... Haha... Whatever it is, I still like the song.

Will my love life be smooth? Does faith really work? I don't know. Hahaha... Anyway, I'm willing to try... But I've to find a balance between faith and also preparing myself for the worst. That's hard to do... hahaha... but well~~~ *ShRuGz* and now I guess I shan't think too much and just live life for the present =)

Right... Nitez everyone... I'm going into concussion soon.....

Medley of Thoughts

2004-06-03T13:52:00.000+08:00

Lunch time is nearing its end... and here I am, starting to write this only now. Don't care... the most I just continue writing while working haha... Work is B-O-R-I-N-G~~~ x_x

Feeling very tired and sleepy... Think I'm still in a holiday mood... there're lots of things to do today...all carried forward to now cos of the holiday yesterday... Guess holiday ain't exactly that good afterall... U suffer when u come back the next day... and today's the second day that I'm not seeing May at work... so sian!!! Miss you May... the whole office is so quiet today... no May, no Nat n no Lih Woei... all my talking kakis not here today... makes my day super boring...pretty painful... cos I can't talk much haha... I LOVE TO TALK!!! Hahaha... Sharks... It's already 2 o'clock now... I'm so afraid of the phone ringing non-stop again... I'm sure I'm going to develop a psychological disorder soon... *Ringing Phobia* Everytime I'm in the office, I get uptight when I hear the phone ring... :S Lunch has juz ended and already, I have a pile of work before me... Stress... hate it when the vessels start to delay... not for one or two days, but 2 weeks at one go!!! Madness... cargoes end up having to be transferred, shipments rearranged... and we get bombarded by shippers... Madness~~~ Newaez, forget bout that. Argh... don't really like to talk bout work. :P

Feel so sian...

Sharks work really piling up... I'll continue this later.

Seeya guys~~~

Holiday

2004-06-02T16:26:00.000+08:00

Firstly, many thanks to Weili a.k.a Gorrilla for his suggestions and guidance in how to improve my blog. I'll go try it out.
Now, for the real thing...

It's a pain when u have a phone that renders all your friends' voices inaudible. You always have to go "Huh??? Sorry??? Can say again?!?!", and it makes you look as if you're hard of hearing or something. And of course, your friend at the other end of the line also gets sick of having to repeat the same thing twice or thrice before he or she gets the message across. And u end up getting the both of you pek chek over one teleconversation. Makes you wonder why u even called in the first place -_-

Newaez, that aside, today is a rather good day ba... nice weather, not too warm, n not exactly raining like cats n dogs either. Able to go out without having to feel uncomfortable... except for that apprehension that it might start raining anytime... skies have been dark for almost the whole day... but anyway, I'm thankful for the cool weather in place of the hot n humid days that have gone on for so long... and on top of that, today's a PUBLIC HOLIDAY!!! Definition of public holiday? Means that it's a holiday for everyone. Means that nobody have to work today (or um... at least most) which in turn means...... I DON'T HAVE TO WORK!!! Wahahahahahahahaha...... so happie~~~ For once, I can sleep my way through on a weekday without having to worry bout being late for work. Do you know how good it feels to be able to sleep without any cares??? Without any anticipation of waking up when the alarm goes off??? Whoa... it feels like a long time since I was able to do this... haha....

So, I woke up at twelve, feeling absolutely refreshed. A good night's sleep really makes a difference. Following that had a nice brunch of vege bee hoon...ahha one of my fav breakfast other than buttered toast. YUMMY~ and since then I have stayed in front of the computer till now.

Sighz.... I've been researching on the different institutions offering external degrees since yesterday... but have not come to a conclusion yet. Not only that, but I'm in a bigger dilemma than ever cos more n more choices keeps popping up. Plus, there're lots of things to consider. Like, which university is more recognised? Which university offers a more practical curriculum? And I believe the institution that is offering the degrees also matters... Like one of my choices right now is to go to Raffles Lasalle to pursue a degree in biz ad, awarded by Leeds Metropolitan University in the UK. The curriculum seems practical enough compared to the UOL curriculum, with modules that really prepare you for the working world instead of preparing you just for exams. The question here is... Lasalle? This word alone reminds people of a design institution instead of a business one... so will people actually recognise a degree that u got from there? Besides, Leeds Metropolitan University... how many people have heard of that before? Will people even look at it? I have this scenario going thru my head right now: I'm having an interview with a prospective employer, and all my qualifications r presented before him. He reaches for my degree and scrutinises it, eyebrows upturned, and says, "Leeds Metropolitan U? Hmmm... don't seem to have heard of it." *OMG* What will I be supposed to say then??? Argh... Headache....headache....

Guess I'll stop here....hafta have a break.....

Juz Today

2004-05-31T22:45:00.000+08:00

Well, nothing much happened today, which explains the title... Haha... Hmm... Right... the one thing that's of significance is that today's May's last day at SSL! So sad... no more fellow temp. No more lunch kaki to walk to market/Amoy wif me... No more MSN exchanges at work!!! Life's gonna be boring from now onwards... the only incentive of going to work is now gone... To think that all I'd see is just an empty desk when I go to the photocopier from morrow onwards makes me... utterly dejected. Hahaha... sighz... May... muz always come visit me leh... if not I'll feel lonely u know? *Sniffz...sobz*

Hmm... took a couple of photos with May today... and also earned 2 hours of OT at the same time. 77 bucks! Woohoo~~~ hahaha... so... the day ain't that bad afterall haha... that is, in the monetary sense. Hahaha...

May passed me a copy of something like a prospectus from SIM-OUC today... the business course in there seems interesting... well, at least more so than the UOL programmes... but I wonder if they offer full time programmes... if not... guess I'll just go take the UOL thingy... I don't want to study part-time... Firstly, I wanna be a real student and enjoy a real student's life and secondly, I doubt I can juggle work and studies at the same time... my grades will probably suffer... n end up in an abyss somewhere where I can't even feel them haha... Newaez, all the best of luck to me in my studies~

Getting kinda sleepy right now... didn't sleep much yesterday... I slept at 5 plus n woke up at 8... tired~~~ guess I'll go catch some sleep now...

Stay tuned~

YaWnZZZ

2004-05-30T02:16:00.000+08:00

As my title suggests, I'm feeling kinda sleepy and tired right now... haha... but noting that I haven't updated my blog for some days, I decided to post something up before going to sleep.

Went to SIM today to get the brochures and application forms. Saw this brochure about University of Buffalo... a uni from the US. Never heard of it before... but the course it offered (BSc Business Admin, Concentrations in Int'l Business n Mktg) attracted me. The modules offered for the course appeared pretty comprehensive, ranging from Maths, Soci, Psycho, Communication, Finance, Law, Information Systems, Production and Ops Management, and even Music!!! Interesting! I was in a dilemma cos I didn't know whether I wanted this or the more acclaimed (supposedly) but also more boring, exam-based and project-less (is there such a word?) UOL programme. But it turned out that I didn't have to think so much afterall, cos the customer service guy told me that applications for this course had closed. Well~ just as well. One trouble down. UOL it would be then.

Then, I had to choose which course to take for the UOL programme. Again, I had a hard time choosing between Business, Management and Econs & Management. Well, anyway, eventually I decided on Econs & Management cos it seemed more holistic to me the other two. So, yeah... Next, I'll have to clear my doubts on some of the details regarding payment... everything seemed so ambiguous in the brochure... guess I'll have to check it out with my friends currently studying at SIM or go back to the customer service to enquire about all those stuff... Hmm...

Had a glimpse at the world of HTML today. So interesting! Hahaha... and if I manage to master those, I'd be able to turn this blog into a more interesting product. Hahaha... and my webby will also be greatly enhanced :D Oh yah... that brings me to Weili's question... I wish to include a tagboard... but dunno how... teach me? Oh hey and how do you make it such that anyone can leave their comments for your blog ah? I've changed the comments settings to 'anyone' already leh... but still cannot... can only leave as registered user or annonymous... argh..... can someone help me???

Hmm... Yup that's about all for today... *YaWnZZZ* getting sleepier now... guess I'll go sleep or do something that's relaxing...

Good nite to all.

Sigh...

2004-05-24T13:24:00.000+08:00

I really don't know what to say bout my pc in the office. Everytime I'm trying to do something important, or surfing things that I really want to see, weird applications that I didn't even click on pop out and closes my IE or whatever I happen to be doing at the time. It's utterly frustrating, especially when your customer is on the phone, holding for you, wondering why in the world you're taking such a long time to check some simple stuff. Maybe the computer just hates me. Donno.

As you might have guessed, yeah, the computer went nuts again and closed my IE window when I was halfway through with this blog... and I have to start all over again -_- Anyway, I was saying earlier that today started off a little shaky. Woke up at 8.30 a.m. and almost got late for work... Thank God I was only 5 minutes late. No harm done. Whew~ But I still feel tired and sleepy. It was like that from the moment I woke up, and things didn't get any better even after I've washed up. I didn't feel any more refreshed than when I first opened my eyes. The sleep bug followed me all the way till now and I'm feeling super sleepy, and on top of that, dizzy. Really feel like going home to sleep. *YaWnz*

I'm still pondering on the topic of BGR. Uncertainties, in some cases are inevitable I guess... but I wonder how long can a woman endure uncertainties and go on waiting for something that she's not sure of. What if in the end, she ends up with nothing? Maybe when it happens, she can accept it and get over it with time. But while things remain uncertain, I think the fear of ending up with nothing will continue to linger deep inside. This fear in turn, makes the woman question herself as to how long she intends to wait for an absolution. It's a natural reflex, triggered by a woman's instinct to protect herself from getting hurt. But exactly how long should one wait? Maybe some fellow members of the female species will set a dateline when they'll give up everything if they still do not receive an answer by then. However, there'll be other women out there who prefer not to think of datelines and decide to wait for as long as they can, for, from their perspective, if they set a dateline, everything will be centred around the dateline, and things will appear pretty hopeless from the start, more or less. These are the ones who'll go on to wait indefinitely. But I think... I'm not sure bout that ok... but I do think that there'll come a point of time when they will get tired of waiting...for an absolution that seems never to come (sounds like the tagline from Titanic, I know, but I think it's true). It's not that they have no more feelings for the other party... it's just that I think they no longer find any point in waiting... they are drained emotionally and can't keep up with this anymore.

Sometimes I wonder if the above will happen to me... and I wonder if my conclusions stated above are right. Haha... but in any case, now's not the time to worry yet. =)

Sighz...work is piling up right now... guess I'll have to get back to work now.

Seeya ppl~

Racing Thoughts

2004-05-24T00:45:00.000+08:00

Juz came out of the shower, so I'm supposed to be feeling refreshed. But I am feeling kinda tired and sleepy, and my fingers aren't working that well either... they seem to be shaking too much for me to hit the correct keys and my mind is sort of in a blur right now too haha... can hear my bed calling out to me le haha.... but newaez, will post this up first.

I love late night showers. Yes I know they're unhealthy, I know they cause rheumatism and I know u can catch a cold easily by having late night showers. But, a shower late at night is the best time to be alone, at least for me. It is the only time at home when I'm able to place myself in momentary solitude and drift into my own thoughts. That explains why I spend a long time in the shower daily, thinking about everything and anything that comes to my mind.

Call me shallow, but recently, all that I've been thinking about is the thing that most humans can't escape from: BGR. Humans are masochists. Well, at least most are, those who allow themselves to dabble in the complexities and anxieties and troubles and problems (or whatever u can think of) of a relationship. If you don't get what I mean, look here. When we're not in a relationship, we yearn for it. When we are plunged into one, we worry about the relationship. "Will the relationship last? What happens if my bf/gf meets someone better than me? How do I make myself perfect?" Either way, we just keep subjecting ourself to troubles, troubles and more troubles, and we seem to enjoy looking for trouble by being involved in a relationship, or wanting to be involved in one. Now, isn't that being masochistic? But, masochistic or not, relationships and the problems that come along with it will prevail as long as human beings exist. *ShRuGz*

I've also come to realise the importance of security to a woman. Of course, everyone knows that what women want most is a sense of security, but I've only come to understand it for myself recently. The big 'S' is very important, especially to people who are prone to major bouts of insecurities like yours truly. I need lots of reassurance to be convinced that everything will be alright. Uncertainties confuse me and puts me at a loss as to what I should expect, and what I should do, so I don't exactly feel very comfortable with the uncertainties that are shrouding me right now, though I try hard to make the best out of it. Don't be mistaken, I'm not grumbling or fussing over here... I'm just trying to sort out the hundreds of thoughts that are racing through my head right now...

There's more that came to my mind, and I wish I can go on to write about all that I've thought about in the shower earlier, but my brains and my heavy eyelids simply refuses to listen right now. Looks like I'll have to carry on tomorrow when I'm in a more sober state of mind and can start typing properly... so.... that's all for now....

Goodnight Everyone. Sweet Dreams to all~~~

B.O.R.E.D. W.A.R.M. C.R.A.N.K.Y.

2004-05-23T15:35:00.000+08:00

Bored. Warm. Cranky.

That's how I'm feeling right now. I wonder why's the weather been so warm lately. It's making me feel pretty sick, and I think the stuffiness has kinda got to my head. I can't think properly, am having constant headaches, and am just Cranky.

Today's a boring day... well, I guess it wouldn't have been so boring if I had remembered bout my date with May. ARGH May... SORRY!!! sigh... but i know that no matter how many 'Sorry-s' that I say, it wouldn't change the fact that I stood you up. I dunno why I've gotten so forgetful recently. I forget almost all the things that have to be done... including paying bills and also stuff at work. I dunno what has gotten into me these days. The worst thing that I've forgotten was today! I had actually promised to go with May to NTU for a look-see trip. We were set to meet at 11 in the morning at Boon Lay MRT but guess what?! I've clean forgotten about it. Argh... I'm such a loser. The ridiculous thing was I actually woke up at 8 o'clock and... thought I was supposed to go to work, then realised it was Sunday and went back to sleep. It was only when May called me at 10.40 telling me she was already at Boon Lay that I was met with a sudden awakening *light dawns over me.... music please* OMG! I felt a sudden surge of guilt rising inside me and apologised profusely. But... what's done has been done... really can kick myself man... Sorry again, May...

Following the brief episode in the morning, everything seemed to return to normal for the rest of the day and here I am, sitting in front of the computer and writing this. I don't know why it always feels so lazy on a Sunday afternoon. Everything just seems to be so slow-moving, and I'm going out of my mind. I'M BORED!!! Well what can I do? Nothing much... but well, at least it gives me time to do my cross-stitch that I haven't completed... sighz... muz really be on the double le... the pace I'm going at is much too slow...

It's so contradicting you know... on one hand, I'm grumbling that the day is passing too slowly and I'm going nuts just waiting for the day to end. On the other hand, I'm thinking, if the day passes quickly, I'll have to get back to work tomorrow faster... and I'd like to slack around abit more first... what can I say? Life is full of paradoxes.

ARGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! I'M SO BORED!!!!!!!!!! sighz.... hai... think I shall stop here ba... hopefully the cooler evening air (note that i used 'cooler', and not 'cool') will make me feel better and less cranky. All the best to me~~ oh and also to all those out there who are feeling the same right now.

Jya!

The First Entry

2004-05-22T21:08:00.000+08:00

Now... can someone tell me why is it that whenever i try to post something, eagerly, things always screw up and i always end up having to do it again? By this time, I'd already have lost the zest that I had earlier.... sigh.... anyway....

This is the first blog that I'm posting... technically, that is. Strictly speaking, it should be the second, after the first one that somehow got lost in the tangle of complexities of cyberspace... Hmm... took a look at Weili's blog and this guy's blog which my friend showed me... both were humorous and had this light touch to their blog.... their blogs seem interesting. I wonder if I can do the same too? Haha... cos i normally only starts to get introspective after some unhappy incidents had taken place, or when I'm feeling down... then I'll start to think alot and want to pen down my thoughts... I'm thinking that most of my blogs will sound melancholic... or boring..... haha...

Well... there's actually nothing much that happened today... went to work as usual, answered phone calls... there wasn't many calls today, perhaps reason being today's Saturday and not many shipping and export firms work on weekends... Then I knocked off, and went to check out the VCD at tg pagar plaza with May... bought some VCDs... managed to get 'Goodbye Lenin!' which I had wanted to watch sometime back but couldn't cos it was rated
R(A)... also bought a couple of animations... haha... quite happy... the joy of SHOPPING! wahahaha..

That's about all I've done today... quite a routine day... hopefully my next weekend will be more colourful hehe.. Right... that's all for now... hmm.... keep a lookout for my next entry oh... hehe.....

Snapshots

I can be a good student again.

Do you actually know what you're saying?

Bus 179

To be my husband,

胡言乱语

嫁给我

Only I, Know Myself Best...

Johari Window

Memories

HELP.

First Post of the Year

Something Interesting...

Why Are There Such Freaking People Living In My Estate?!?!?!

I find it amazing...

昨天, 今天, 明天 + 大前天

Today, I think that...

Erm... just a very disorganised entry lah

WAH LAU EH!!!

Now I finally know what it means not to be ready for love...

Not a Good Day

It's me again

I'm SICK of Myself.

Of Hiao n Dinners n Happy n Cravings

I'm the most dateable blogger in blogosphere!!!

You Know You're Fat... ...

情难枕

Summary

I NEED A JOB

In the Middle of the Night

Ugly Singaporeans

Stale.

Devastated

Who am I? (the second time)

Bleah

I Very Luan!!!

2nd Day at Work

What is Going On?

First Time Chiong

Exams over liao.....

the Weekend

Friday Nite is the Nite~~~

I'm Back

wanna blog... but tired

Long time no Blog le.....

SLeEe|EeEeEeEeEeEep.................................

Sleepy...

My Weekend Out

Today...

Happy Day!!!

Yet Another Day...

Tired~~~

titleless

Hiya... Long time no see~~~

SianZ...Vexed...SianZ...Vexed...SianZ...Vexed...

Mixed feelings... Lost.

Reflections in the Night

Half Day Off

Tired and Sleepy

Thoughts of the Day

Bored. Interesting. Happy. Tired.

....Frustrated.

TiReD~~~ SLeEpY~~~

Today...

Late in the Night...

Early in the Morning, 3 o'clock

Medley of Thoughts

Holiday

Juz Today

*YaWnZZZ*

Sigh...

Racing Thoughts

B.O.R.E.D. W.A.R.M. C.R.A.N.K.Y.

The First Entry

TiReD~ SLeEpY~

YaWnZZZ